Hikayat 1001 malam...

It was fun. Danial sit right next to me. Dan dia melayan saja kegedikkan aku ini. Hehehe... Tapi dalam masa yang sama aku masih teringat. Si Afiq setan punya pasal la. Dia yang ingatkan. Dah la petang tu aku emo kejap. Worth jugak aku pergi dinner tu. At least malam tu aku happy sikit. Plus si panjang itu ade...

Tapi yang tak best, aku tak dapat nak sakat si Tera lebih2. Sebab aku janji just untuk malam tu je aku tak kacau die. I did keep my promise. Konon control perangai la sebab Danial ada sebelah. Tapi hari tu malam pergi makan kat lilin dengan Mak Jah and budak group yang tolong die showcase tu, Tera and Danial ada menyebuk, pun aku selamba je sakat Tera. Siap lari kejar2 lagi...hehehe.. Tapi masa tu belum angaukan si panjang tu lagi.

Yang menang best dress malam tu for perempuan Ili Diana & lelaki, si Diva.. Erm lelaki la sangat si Diva tu. Kenapa la diorg tak buat category untuk kaum yang sepruh je? Mesti drag habis pondan2 tu...

Erm...si panjang tu melayan je perangai aku malam tu. Tu yang seronok tu. Tapi dalam masa yang sama aku try control jugak sebab dah kena sound dengan Sabby si mulut leser itu. Oh ni ade preview some of the pict masa malam tu.

Me & Mr D pojaan hatiku...(oh ku angau lagi...)





Danial, Azie, Jeppy, Dayah & Sabby



Dgn Zul (x scandal si bola ragbi)
(serious ko tak de taste Zul, but perhaps kau hanya pandang bola ragbi die tu kot...)

Afiq (Muke cam penyangak pecah rumah tu) & King (yg mcm Teddy bear tu)

INFO TAMBAHAN:

Afiq(seperti gambar di atas) sedang berskandal dengan Mak Jijah. Dan Mak Jijah pulak setiap waktu asyik cakap pasal Afiq kat aku. Naik muak aku. Macam kau sorang je yang angau. Aku pun angau gak, tapi dah stabil dah. Ni dia setiap masa dan waktu, topiknye hanye Afiq... Oh Azie...please help me.... Wa.....Mak Jah dah kembali seperti dulu!!!!!!!

Goodbye 2009... Welcome 2010

Goodbye 2009... There's been a lot of unspoken things that i have been through. Some are simple, some are rough and some even more complicated then it use to be... 2009 leave a lot of memories....either it good or sad. But at least 2009 I'm not alone. Naz was always there for me. Thanks my dear.

Family, we've been so together. Owe my cousin got engaged last week, congrats Kak Ita. Abg Zizi is so nice.... Well we've having so much fun during the engagement day... even some idiot spoil our mood we're there had been some stupid argument of a stupid matters, but we still had some fun. Especially when the 6 of us (all the cousin) went to Seri Menanti Old Castle with 2 photographer for a shoot. It was really fun........

The four of us...Adik, Along, Me & Dek Ya (One of us, Kak Long, the one who took the pic)

Abang Zizi & Kak Ita..

All those pict from our cam. I miss my cousin so much... Erm in the same year, i got a new niece... but it my cousin on my dad side kids. I don't remember her name. Sorry little one. Well it's been 3 years since mum passed away...and it's been 3 years since Hector & Troy, my two fat lazy cats live with us.

Faculty...erm...been much better then the first time i started it, but still can't manage to control my nerves either during the forum or exam. And sucks, i didnt get collage for this semester. Damn...i'm going to appeal, but part of me wanted to experiance on staying outside the campus... But i'm so so sure that my dad and my bro totally 100% dont agree with that. Whatever....

My love life...well it's been so nice....but there also had some little arguement once in a while, but we managed to sattle it. He always be there for me. Thanks my dear... Every single little things makes us closer and closer....

And now..... hello and welcome 2010. I hope this year would be much much better from the past. I hope there would be a miracle to makes our life even better then before..

Happy new Year everyone.......

Twilight Saga 'New Moon'

Yeah......i watch New Moon. :) Well, i guess New Moon is nice. The movie was almost exactly like in the book, only several changes for making it more dramatic i guess. Owe yeah, i went for the midnight movie, i went with my bro and my cousin bro, Akim or i usually call him adik. Cause he was 2 years younger then me. It's been almost 3 years i guess, i haven't seen him. He's taller from the last i saw him, as far as i remember. I miss my cousin moment. Too bad that my cousin sister(Kak Ita) can't follow us, cause she's having a terrible flu. I miss her too.

Akim (Adik) & Me at the MBO, Seremban

Back to the New Moon, i read the book, i read Kak Olive book. But it took me awhile to read it and i often left it... So, I'm not really remember how was the ending. Owe and about the Volturi parts, i expect more dramatic but it's kindda disappointed a lil bit. Erm whatever... Owe and my brother keep complaining the part that Jacob wanted to tell Bella that he's a werewolf, he said, he can cut it and make it shorter... oh whatever.

Owe, people may usually feel hurts when the part that Edward left Bella, but to me, I feel hurts when the part he told her that he was lying about the leave (after Bella chasing him at Voltera if I'm not mistakes), i feel so hurts at that part. When i read the book, i cried, same as when i watch it in the movie. I feel like I've been through that moment before.

Owe and i suddenly miss him...

How to know if you're a Twi-hard

Well i just checking my email, then after i sign out from the mailbox, i saw this one article by Lydia Kwan, How to know if you're a Twi-hard. Well of course I'm a Twilight fan. I read all the books well...not all..technically it's the pdf that i download from the Internet. Well i admit that some of the statement are acceptable....but some of it...make me laugh.. I couldn't imagine how imaginative this people are. Seems like Steph Meyers had totally making all those Twilight fans in fantasy. A real fantasy.... Well below this is the exactly article that i copy from the MSN page. Except for the bold comment one... it's from my opinion...

Caught the Twilight fever and feel like you’re losing grip on reality? 12 fanatic Malaysian Twi-hards confess how far they’ve gone with their fandom. Go through our checklist to find out if you’ve gone from neutral to a die-hard Twilight fan!

1. You’ve read all the books Fan confession: “I’ve read all four books over and over again. Sometimes I peep over strangers’ shoulders to see which scene it is, and think about it all over in my head.”

Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn – if you’ve gone all the way to Jacob imprinting on Renesmee and can still remember the dish Bella ordered in the Italian restaurant in the first book, you’ve got this checked.

Comment: Yup...mushroom ravioli :)

2. You firmly believe that vampires exist, and they sparkleFan confession: “Of course they can walk out in the sun… They don’t get scorched, they have marble skin.”

If you believe in Stephenie Meyer’s version of the blood-thirsty predator – a sparkling statue with no fangs – you’ve got this checked too. Chances are, ‘em vamps would be more afraid of screaming girls instead.

Comment: Yup...they would be more afraid of those screaming girls fan... and hello that type of vamp who can walk out in the sun with the marble skin do not exist...da... wake up!

3. You believe that the whole saga is truly going on, somewhere out there Fan confession: “I really thought that Edward and Bella truly existed… or at least good vampires all around the world."

By following Bella’s love journey, one can easily believe this fantasy world Meyer has created for her readers. Question is, are YOU losing grip on reality and dwelling in this world of make-believe?

Comment: Yeah...steph meyers making it sound more real with the Quillete legends. Well i have read in this one web but i don't remember which website...saying about the Quillete ancestors who was a shape-shifter, a wolf.

4. You expect to see Edward in your room at nightFan confession: “Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and look at the corner of my room, hoping he’ll be watching me sleep.”

A big part of the saga narrates Edward’s presence in Bella’s room – from watching her sleep to getting a little physical. He is always stationed on a chair or by the corner of her room, so you know you’ve got this checked if you wake up expecting his golden eyes stare you down.

Comment: Well it's the dream of every girl fans, i guess... but it's rubbish.

5. You want to go to Forks… or Cameron Highlands at leastFan confession: “I wanted to go to Forks to find Edward, but ended up going to Cameron Highlands to read the books again. It felt so great to be in a similar environment... It’s the closest I can get to him.”

Forks… the quiet town turned tourist spot. It’s cold, wet, gloomy and full of greenery. If you’ve got the idea of going there to look for Edward, you’re slowly inching towards obsession.

Comment: Going to Forks to find Edward? Another rubbish i guess....lawak

6. You’ve read Midnight SunFan confession: “I hate whoever who leaked Midnight Sun and caused Meyer to stop writing it... But I’ve read it.”

Midnight Sun is another book by Stephenie Meyer which tells Edward’s side of the story. It was leaked before Meyer was done writing the book, discouraging the authoress as she felt that she was closely watched. She has since published the written 12 chapters online, leaving readers to crave more. If you know of Midnight Sun and have downloaded a copy yourself, you’re definitely a Twi-hard fan.

Comment: Have no idea about the leaked stuff.......but i did have a copy of midnight sun :)

7. You avoid the sunFan confession: “I want to keep my skin as white as possible. I want to look like a vampire and the burning sun is just spoiling my plan.”

While some want to keep a pale complexion to look like vamps (seriously, it happens), some try to follow the lives of the Cullens by staying away from the sun – just in case they sparkle.

Comment: For God sake, it's Malaysia, and it's summer almost through the entire year. Come back to reality babe!

8. You compare your love interest to EdwardFan confession: “It’s a good thing that my boyfriend can’t read my mind. He’d leave me if he knew how much I thought he lacked from Edward.”

Almost every Twi-hard fan has ended up comparing their boyfriends/husbands with Edward Cullen. This is possibly the main reason why guys hate Twilight to no end. Edward depicts the absolute perfect man – strong, powerful, chivalrous and sincerely in love – someone quite impossible to find, yet Twi-hard fans scour the world for him.

Comment: Never compare...cause Naz still the one...except that, Robert are cutter then him...hehehe sorry Yang.

9. Your heart beats faster when you see a silver VolvoFan confession: “Every time I see a silver Volvo, I drive up to it to see if Edward is driving it..”

Edward drives a silver hatchback Volvo in the series, and quotes such as “Nothing like the purr of a Volvo” and “Stupid silver Volvo driver” has been used in the books. If you’ve caught yourself in the act of squealing and running over to see if Edward’s the driver, you’ve got this checked real good.

Comment: Never had crossed my mind!

10. You think of being a vampireFan confession: “I daydream of being just like the Cullens. I love everything about them.”

Vampires are known for their flawless perfection, incredible strength and increased senses amongst others. They’re also famous for being the ultimate baddies in the whole mythical world, as Edward calls it “the world’s most dangerous predator”. Got the hots for a vamp bite, Twilighter?

Comment: Not even once! And hello...never gonna happen in this real world... da... pelik aku..dengan all those fans confession..!

11. You enjoy rainy days the mostFan confession: “It reminds me of rainy Forks. I can also wear my Bella jacket out in warm Kuala Lumpur.”

Forks, as said by Edward, is the wettest place in continental America. In tropical (and mostly scorching) Malaysia, you know you’ve got this checked if you only want the rain for Forks’ environment. Rain for sawah padi? What sawah padi?

Comment: I don't like rain...! Tapi suka mendung... :)

12. You’ve contemplated stealing the life-size cut-out Fan confession: “I stole the cut-out from a cinema in Petaling Jaya. Edward’s in my room now and I kiss him everyday.”

If you find yourself entertaining the idea of stealing these Twilight promos and merchandises, you need to know that (1) it’s illegal, and (2) you’re obsessed with Twilight.

Comment: Yang ni seriously obsess giler....and psycho pun ade jugak... hehe seram..

Return

It's been a while since my last post. I'm not really in mood to write stuff. Well i watch 2012 last week. Menarik... And cry juga la. Tetiba touching... Bila tiba-tiba terbayangkan kita in that situation. Menunggu ajal. Sedih. I miss shah alam. I really am. Rasa bosan di rumah. Rasa macam tak da life. Whatever....

Owe...tak sabar nak tunggu 'New Moon'.... Benci! Kat US hari Jumaat lepas dah keluar. Kat sini 26 nov ni baru keluar. Benci! Damn...i dunno why, but suddenly...lately ni, i'm so so and so in love with Robert Thomas Pattison. The one who play Edward Cullen dalam Twilight tu... Gosh.... Dah lama aku tak rasa gilakan seseorg artis sampai camni. He's such a damn hottie.

Dah lama rasanya tak tulis poems... I want to write...tapi tak de idea dan tak de mood. I miss Naz.... I hope i can write something for him. Something special...

Owe and just chat with Zaki... He's sounds so regret for letting me go... But it serves him well i guess.... After all thus years that he had done to me...erm...whatever la...

I'm just blur rite now....feels so empty... Aku tak tau ape yg boleh buat aku happy sekarang... Rasa macam something misssing....

Erm....it's almost 4 am now.... Going to sleep....Gud nite

Server Down

Well...tajuk server down ni sebenarnye, x delah kena mengena dengan connection internet yang slalu menyakitkan hati kita semua bila dia buat hal. Tapi berkenaan dengan diri aku yang lately ni asyik breakdown. Memula mental breakdown. Ganggu aku nak buat kerja. Isi penting dah ada, nak buat ayat aku tetibe blur. Hampir sepanjang waktu keje jugaklah aku kena mental breakdown ni. Tapi nasiblah petang semalam ada perlawanan badminton kat tempat praktikal aku tu, dapatlah jugak release tension and tenangkan mental yg breakdown ni. Btw, mental breakdown tu semalam.

Hari ni pulak, emotion breakdown. Aku tak tau kenapa, tetibe emo sangat sampai kena kacau Naz yang tengah ada class tu, kenalah sayang aku tu memujuk sambil menenangkan. Sabar je la die dengan kerenah aku ni. Teruk punya breakdown...sampai mata aku merah la. Tapi of course la aku tak melalak depan org mcm sesetengah umat. Memula aku dok kt bilik tv cuba control emotion, then tetibe ade malaun sekor ni nyanyi lagu yang buat aku terus rase nak melalak. Terus lari ke surau and melalak sesorang kat situ.

Muka baru lepas melalak. Mata dah kurang merah.

Lately ni ada org hitting on aku. Hitting dengan cara main tarik tali. Bencinye. Aku paling tak boleh bla bile terpandang mata playboy die tu. Bergegar kejap satu badan. Mampos kena cincang aku kalau Naz tau. Huhuhu. Aku cuba buat gab, dia cuba menggatal rapat. Lantaklah lu mamat. Jangan bini lu carik wa kata wa menggatal kat laki dia sudah.

Owe, fyi, aku kena jadi mc untuk program 'Bintang Asli Remaja' peringkat zon selatan. And one n9 punya wakil, adik kepada Kak Cik @ Kak Fazura Violin tu. Nama dia Fazli. So just nak wish him good luck and all the best. Owe and i need a luck too. Aku dah la stage fright, cik mat menggatal pegi letak aku jadi mc, mau gagap aku atas stage nanti. Nasib aku bukan sesorg. Aku ngan KC. KC pon 2 kali 5 aku jugak, x reti nak beckp. Gabungan yang sangat padanlah tu cik mat. Kalau annocement tak lancar jangan salahkan kitorg erk. Kitorg dh cube buat yang the best.

Erm ape lagi erk aku nak membebel?

Owe ye...yang perlawanan badminton tu, aku ngan partner aku menang. Hehehe...aku partner dengan Lee (bdk practical UM tu) and dia memang bagus. Lucky for me...hehehe. Thanks Lee.

Owe and i guess that's for now kot.

Orang-orang yang ting tong

Hantu punya TP, tak pasal-pasal pagi tadi aku sakan kena bahan dengan TP waktu mesyuarat pagi tadi. Dah lah sebelum tu die buat lawak bodoh dengan menyuruh kitorg bayangkan macam mana kalau die pakai sari. Okey, korang cube imagine erk, dia itam, gemok and tinggi lebih kurang tinggi aku. Tak ke macam badak sumbu pun ade tu....tapi colour extra gelap sketl.

Lebih kurang macam nilah agaknye kot rupe die, cuma extra gelap, extra boroi and extra drag. BTW, gamba ni drag queen dr mane tah, aku jumpe kat yahoo pict.

Yang ketua pemuzik die plak, lagi sengal, orang tanya dia main instrument apa untuk perform, dia boleh pegi jawab main alat kelamin.....satu bilik mesyuarat sakit perut tergelak. Ada yang muka merah tahan gelak. Aku sampai cram perut dibuatnya. Lepas tu org tua tu ade hati plak ajak aku pg dating.... geli aku. Serious org tua tu lucah giler. 1st day kitorg masuk practical dh kena ayat2 lucah ngan die(secara bergurau, tp mmg ayat2 die agak lucah).

Meeting tadi aku dapat satu keje lagi, kena uruskan program "Bintang Asli Remaja" plak. Nasib bawah abg Faizal. Senang sket nak deal. Masuk ni dah 5 program aku bawah die. Bahagianye... dia tak membebankan otak aku. Next week ada kena uruskan bengkel kemahiran seni. Too bad tak dapat sambutan sangat, yelah sebab bebayor. Manelah org nak.

This week je la so far baru aku dapat relax weekend, kalau tak, asyik ade program je. Macam last week hari sabtu, dari pagi sampai malam. Pagi program lain, malam program lain. Yang belah pagi tu lagi haru, aku kena urus sesorg wo. Panic gak aku kejap. Yelah, abg Faizal lambat sampai. Nasib bahagian technical ada org, kalau aku jugak yang kena, mau haru.

Mate aku dah ting tong ni...ngantok bebeno........walau ada banyak lagi nak membebel. Perhaps aku kena sambung dalam post lain plak. Good nite.....eh nite ke morning erk ni? Dah kol 2 am dah....ting tong otak aku!

Poor little one...

Poor little one... Fara,

After loosing her grandmother a week before, now she's loosing the love of her life. Her soul mates. I don't know how can she handle this. I hope she's strong enough to deal with all this situation. Well as i said before on my previous post that i don't know her bf name, just now i got some info from Wanie. The news of his death was one of the headlines in US. That explain why Fara sounds so weak while she was crying when i call her that morning. To Fara, please be strong. We'll be waiting for you to get back in work soon. And here the link to the news about the bf, Nublan Zaki Norhadi. Al-fatihah.

P/S: You can visit this blog if you wanna know more about him. This blog belongs to one of his close friend.

Temasya Mengemping

Semalam, adalah hari yang memenatkan sampai aku tak sempat nak online, terus tido. Asalnya aku kena jadi urus setia dalam Temasya Mengemping semalam, tapi last minute, hari jumaat lepas, budda-budak music kat JKKNS tu panggil aku ngan Farah tok naik atas. Diorg suruh kami buat tumbuk kalang. Memula excited la, tapi bila dah buat, penat siot. Dah la tempo laju, pastu kena tumbuk sepanjang lagu tu. Nasib la lagu tu tak lama sangat dalam 2 minit lebih. Tapi tu pun lenguh jugaklah. Plus memula masuk je diorg dah bagi aku tempo yang paling laju. Sampai kejang kejap urat tangan aku.

Lepas tu pulak, tetibe diorg suruh jadi back up singer untuk this one song, "Riwayat Petani", ok la. Well sebenarnya Temasya Mengemping ni memang ada berkenaan dengan padi la. Tah camne tah, aku pun tak sure. Aku pegi jer. Tapi aku tak tengok pon diorg buat ape. Busy bersiap kt belakang stage. Asal aku kena back up satu lagu je, and satu lagu lagi tumbuk kalang, bila dah kat stage terus 3 lagu aku kena. Hampeh sey....pastu bagi aku pakai satu baju je, baju kebaya untuk tumbuk kalang yang maha menggatalkan kulit aku dan maha ketat. Aku agak tensi jugaklah sket dengan some of the dancers tu. Tapi some of them ok.

Semalam, bertolak dari Seremban pukul 6 pagi, owe lupa, temasya tu buat kat Simpang Pertang, Jelebu. Giler dalam dan ulu. And then balik sampai kat Taman Budaya balik dalam pukul 9 mlm. Kitorg keluar sebelum matahari terbit dan balik selepas matahari terbenam. Paling aku tak tahan masa kat sana, cuaca. Panas sey... Habis cair make up aku. Plus aku nye make up pun bukannya tebal sangat macam yang lain. Tebal sey make up diorg. Macam tepun gomak. Tapi tak kata la, diorg tu dancers.

The musician, sangat relax. Honestly diorg memang bagus dan mantap. Aku salute kat Along and Abang Cimau (Sebab diorg tu fave aku. hehehe. the rest pon ok gak), diorg mmg tip top. Tapi sayangnya...sound system cam haprak. Dah la tak cukup mike. Pastu org yang jage audio tu mangkok, sampai tak denga suara penyanyi and back up. Buat spoil performance jer. Kalau org JKKNS memang dah kena maki dah, tapi disebabkan diorg tu dari Jabatan Penerangan, terpaksalah akur je.

Well ni ada a few pict yang aku sempat amek. Semua busy sampai nak bergambar pon terlupa. Nanti aku cuba try dptkn gamba performance.

Dengan Kak Lily, a dancer selaku back up singer. Tapi waktu temasya tu die just jd back up singer jer. Gosh gelapnye kulit aku...huhuhu

With Abang Cimau. The keyboardist. Gosh my face look so funny in this pict.

With Afiq. Adik pada singer band pada hari tu, Kak Aisyah Wahid.

Practical & ARtWoRk

Well, today is my 3rd day as a practical student at JKKNS (Jabatan Kebudayaan Kesenian Negeri Sembilan). Yesterday been such a thuff day. I have to be the at the front desk cause the front desk girl had an audition for ASWARA. Damn i hate being at the front desk. Being the operator who connected lines to this and that etc. I'm not a good talker. Damn it! Every each second i prayed for the phone not to rang, cause i'm afraid that i'm can't handle the talk on my own. What do you expect, it's my 2nd day.

The day before( the 1st day), all i had to do is search for a song and download it, but thank to the damn broadband, i can't finished the download there. Thank God i can finish it at home. Owe back to the main point, no one thought me how to use the damn phone and how to answer it etc. I'm not a good speaker. So i don't think i can hadle that. But thank God the day is over. Owe i got back from work around 8 sumthin. Thanks to the damn meeting who involves us all (the practical student, there were 5 of us. 3 others from UM), so we have to stay until the meeting over at 7.30 pm. I'm so exhausted. But even i'm busy with the front desk, i still got a time to play my baby guitar.

Well the head music department, En. Yuzi ask me to bring my guitar, he wanna hear me play and perhaps that we can create something from Mandolin (he play's the Mandolin, kindda cute) and classical guitar and combined it togather.

Owe well move on to the next main tittle, the ARtWoRk. Well this evening, after our Asistant Director, Cik Mat, went to the RTM Negeri Sembilan at sg. Gadut, replacing our Director, i don't know where the hell he have been, cause haven't meet him yet ever since i got in for practical, back to main point, all the staff feels relief after Datuk Rais Yatim, the Minister of Information, Communication & Cultures, done with his tour and meeting at our place. Well, Cik Mat accompanied him to the RTM. All of us seems like have nothing to do at the office, except me, have to done some of Kak Linda's work (one of the staff), all of the staff were chatting, gossiping, eating, sleeping etc. Such as being so lazy. Including the all the practical student except me and Farah, cause i'm doing Kak Linda's work and Farah was on her day off that she ask for her driving test. Kc's, one of the UM students, using the computer at my place cause i'm using the pc at his place, sort of like we're exchanging place with each other. I have to do my work at his place cause i have to use the thumbdrive, the pc at my seats are ting-tong, can't detect the thumbdrive. So Kc was playing some of the games at my place. Then after bored with the games, he drawing something, ain't using any art pen or else, only a mouse, he create this one looks that attract me, but too bad he already erase it. But i manage to take a 2 of the painting that he aint close neither save yet, before he erase it for the second times. To me it's kindda cute.

KC'S first stuff

KC'S 2nd stuff

Aiman's Stuff

Finally i can breathe...

Finally....boleh jugak bernafas... It's almost a month tak dapat internet kat rumah. Aku mati kutu. Tak tau nak buat ape... Well sebenarnye banyak je keje....Tapi keje utamaku adelah on9...tapi tak dapat dijalankan. So mati kutu la jawabnye. Ni semua disebabkan habis rosak line phone sederet rumah aku ni. Kena sambar kilat. Bukan minor problem tapi major punye. Last week dah ada org datang betulkan, tapi tak boleh gak lagi. Puas la aku bising kat papa suruh call org2 yang berkenaan tu.

Then hari ni ade sorang je yang datang berbanding last week sampai 5 ke 6 org, org yang datang hari ni check rupenye, diorg salah pasang. Sebab tulah benda alah tu tak berfungsi. Bodoh......tambah lagi seminggu aku tak dapat on9. Bongok! Benci! At last dalam pukul 3 petang tadi, akhirnya aku dapat bernafas kembali dengan adenye line internet ku kini. Hehehe. Nasib hari tu tak terlepas registration course. Last day registration, aku kat Shah Alam, nasib aku sempat on9 kat CC, so sempatlah buat.

As hot as the desert

It's already 5 am in the morning. But i still did not sleep yet since last night. I have a terrible wifi connection in my room and now i'm online at my juniors room at one of the girl bed while she sleeping at the other room. It's not that didn't have any other beds here, cause the other 2 roomates haven't come back yet, but she still wann sleep at the other room. Only left me and the other roommates, Lenny. Well Lenny already fall asleep about 2 hours ago i guess. I wanna go back to my room but feel teribble to wake Lenny's up, to lock the door. But i don't know, probably i'll just sleep here or i might get back to my room. Owe my roomates Aiman already awake and she's going to the toilet, to get a shower i guess, ain't so sure.

Gosh, it's damn hot day, i can feel that my neck sweating in the middle of the morning. And yesterday morning, i sleep on the floor because can't stand the heat. Feel so good until 11 am, then i have to wake up. I started to sweat even when i sleeping on the floor. It's just last few days, there was a heavy rain during i got back to Seremban, but then suddenlly it change. The weather feels like we're a desert or something.

I'm sleepy, but the weather that keeps me awake. I can't stand sleeping in the condition where my neck sweating. Gosh...my eyes feels so painfull right now. Probably because i haven't get enough rest and sleep. And also it's already morning and i haven't sleep yet since last night. Gosh this late few days i haven't get enough sleep.

Please Dear Allah, give a weather that suite and comfertable for us. Please...

Ayat-ayat Cinta

Well, aku baru habis tengok movie 'Ayat-ayat Cinta'. An Indonesian film. Tapi cerita dia tak typical cerita movie Indonesian. Sedih. Honestly memang sedih. Masuk ni dah dua kali aku tengok cite ni, Aku nangis. Ni baru tengok cerita, belum baca novel dia lagi. Btw, cerita ni adaptasi dari novel yang tittle die 'Ayat-ayat Cinta' gak. Author die Habiburrahman El Sh Menurut dari sumber2 orang yang dah baca novel ni, diorg cakap, cerita dalam novel lagi panjang dan banyak conflict. Tapi bila dah dijadikan movie, banyak yang dia tak ambil. Owe btw, ada source aku cakap, tapi aku tak sure, cerita dari novel tu, based on true story. Tapi how far is it true, aku tak tau la.

Poster film
'Ayat-ayat Cinta'

Aku bagi la sinopsis serba sikit tentang cite ni ye. Tapi kalau korang ada peluang nak tengok cite ni ke atau nak baca novel dia, go ahead. It worth it. Tapi kena betul-betul faham la. Sebab cerita dia macam puisi sikit. Ramai yang tersalah tafsir termasuk la aku.

Erm Mesir. Nama dia Fahri. Dalam cite ni, Fahri ni tersangatlah baik, pure and innocent human beingback to the main point, cerita ni mengisahkan tentang seorang penuntut Indonesia di Al-Azhar, la. Normally orang cakap wanita suci kan? Ini ala-ala lelaki suci camtu la. Dia ada close friend, perempuan dan merangkap jiran dia. Nama perempuan ni Maria. Maria ni Kristian Coptic, well Fahri tu of course la muslim. Erm...Fahri and Maria ni close friend. Maria ni have a big crush on Fahri.

One day, both of them ada selamtakan seorang perempuan mesir, yang bernama Noura. Diorg selamatkan Noura ni dari tuan dia ke bapak angkat die tah yang nama dia Bahadur. So diorg dah selamatkan Noura ni and tolong carikan bapak and mak kandung Noura. And she's safe then. Tapi tiba-tiba one day, Fahri kena tangkap polis, atas kesalah merogol Naura. Nilah climax cerita ni. Tapi dalam novel aku tau taulah. Katanya novel lagi best dan lagi sedih.

Cover Novel 'Ayat-ayat Cinta' latest edition

Dalam cerita ni, inilah cabaran pada Fahri ni, sebab kalau sebelum ni hidup dia seems sangat perfect. Tapi ini dugaan dia paling besar. Kena accuse atas kesalahan yang dia tak lakukan. Owe lupa pulak, after diorg dah selamat temukan Naura dengan family dia, Fahri ni kahwin, secara ta'aruf. Aku pun tak sure macam mana. Korang surf la internet untuk tau lebih lanjut. Dengan seorang perempuan kacukkan Turkey dengan ape tah, and nama dia Aisyah. Of course la Aisyah ni muslim. Back to cerita dia kena tangkap tadi. Masa Fahri kena tangkap tu, terserlah ketabahan Aisyah ni. Dia buat macam-macam untuk selamatkan suami dia, walaupun dalam masa yang sama dia belum betul-betul kenal suami dia. Iyelah, kahwin ta'aruf.

Puas diorg cari bukti untuk membuktikan Fahri ni innocent. Tapi sayangnya almost semua bukti tu luput atau hilang. Diorag cuba contact Maria, tapi Maria dah pindah and tak ada saap tau Maria pindah ke mana. Sebab Maria adalah saksi penting bagi Fahri, testimonial dia dapat selamatkan Fahri. Before Maria pindah, dia accident, kena langgar, but she's survive. Aisya pegi trace balik nak cari Maria ni. Dan dia jumpa. Tapi waktu tu Maria ni sedang coma. Mulanya Aisyah cuba bagi Maria dengar suara Fahri yang dia record, tapi it didn't work, doctor cakap perhaps Fahri perlu datang sendiri. Dan dia uruskan dengan lawyer dia untuk bawa Fahri datang.

Hanya untuk beberapa jam. Dan sewaktu di sana, Aisyah suruh Fahri bernikah dengan Maria, sebab dia fikir itu satu-satunya cara untuk buat Maria sedar dari coma. Dan Fahri bernikah dengan Maria waktu tu jugak. Owe, mesti korang wonder how come diorg boleh bernikah sedangkan Maria tu kristian kan? Maria tu Kristian Coptic atau or lebih kenal dengan Kristian Orthodox, yang skang hanya ada di belahh2 Mesir sana. Kristian Coptic ni, ada dalam kitab dan ajaran dia percaya bahawa ada Nabi lain selepas Isa. Kira orang yang beragama Kristian Coptic ni memang boleh berkahwin dengan Islam. Ok back to the story, selepas saja nikah dan Fahri tu bercakap la serba siket dengan Maria, barulah dia nak jaga.

And waktu final trial tu barulah Maria dapat datang bagi testimonial. Dan belum sempat Maria habis disoal jawap, suddenlly Noura tu bangun then cakap macam perempuan gile (aku annoyed gile tengok betina ni), barulah dia cakap perkara yang sebenarnya. Bador yang sebenarnya dah rogol dia dan buat dia sampai mengandung. Dah banyak kali kena rogol dengan Bahadur ni. So empunya badan dah reveal the truth. So Fahri pun dibebaskanlah dan Bador yang kena tangkap. Btw, lupa pulak, motif dia tuduh Fahri yang rogol dia sebab dia pun have a big crush on Fahri, tapi Fahri tak sambut cinta dia. Itulah yang menyebabkan dia fithnah si Fahri ni.

Ayat-ayat Cinta - Rossa

Ending dia, memula Aisyah ni tak dapat terima yang dia bermadu, walaupun dia sendiri yang suruh Fahri bernikah dengan Maria. Tapi at last bila dia dah sedar, dia pun dapat accept. Bila diorg dah mula nak happy, suddenly Maria ni meninggal, waktu dia tengah sembahyang. Waktu tu first time dia belajar nak sembahyang, sambil dia sembahyang baring, sebab dia sakit waktu tu. Dan dia meninggal waktu sedang solat. Kalau tak silap aku waktu nak sujud tu dia meninggal. (Fyi, dia suruh Aisyah dan Fahri ajar dan bersolat dengan dia sekali, inilah guidline yang mengatakan dia meninggal waktu sedang sujud.)

Seriously cite ni memang sedih. Kalau setakat aku bagitau memang susah korang nak faham. So better tengok sendiri atau baca novel dia. Aku teringin nak baca novel dia. Diorg cakap best. Please sape yang ade novel dia bagi aku pinjam boleh tak? Atau bagi aku birthday present novel tu ke? Hehehe.... Btw, cuba korang amati lirik lagu soundtrack cite ni, yang tittle dia sama gak, 'Ayat-ayat Cinta', memang dia buat sangat special untuk cerita ni. Kena sangat lirik dia. Paling nampak bila ending chorus dia ayat dia camni, "Namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta, ketika ku bersujud" , kena sangat dengan ending cerita ni. Sedih wo... Kekdangan aku dengar lagu dia pun aku boleh nangis.

Another boring evening

Things ain't go as we expect it to be. Aku sepatutnya perform untuk Pop Ensamble, tapi kena tangguh sebab class cancel. Tak tahulah bila diorg nak buat last performance ni. Last Monday aku dah excited gila nak perform untuk Pop Ensamble, tapi cancel. Last Tueasday aku dah excited nak perform untuk forum, tapi tak dapat sebab diorang dulukan budak part 6, 7, 8 and last sitting dulu. Tapi ramai je yang bukan last sitting tapi mengaku last sitting. Sakit ati je. Geram and tension aku. Pada hal aku dah excited nak perform tapi hajat tak kesampaian. Semuanya salah aku gak sebab slalu buat performance last minutes. Wannie please jangan bebel. Aku tau kau akan bebel kat aku sal ni.

During study week ni mesti bosan. Sebab duduk rumah je. Aku ingat nak balik Shah Alam, duk hostel je tapi bila fikir balik tak de orang kat bilik, jangan haraplah. Aku tak pernah nak tidur sesorang kat bilik. Rela aku tumpang rumah member kat luar atau ajak bf aku teman aku tido kat mcd sect 3 tu. Tak hengen aku balik bilik tidur sesorang. Kalau kat Shah Alam, at least aku bebas begerak sket. Tak macam kat seremban. Kat shah alam aku tau nak naik public transport. Kalau kat sini mampos naik teksi pon aku tak tau nak tunggu mana.

Boleh tak kalau aku nak putarkan waktu balik ke zaman dulu. Aku rase lately ni macam terlalu banyak sangat sesal. Rasa macam nak turn back time je. Kalau boleh aku nak balik ke zaman aku baby. Time mama aku masih ada lagi. Aku nak manje sepuas-puasnye dengan mama. Tapi sayang, aku dalam reality. Bukan dalam fantasy. Aku rasa zaman budak-budak aku sangat bahagia. Sekarang pun happy jugak. Just cabaran hidup tu tersangatlah berat, perit, sukar, etc. Things getting complicated right now. And it's hard to explain it. Hanya boleh dirasa dan sukar diungkap.

Tapi kalau diulang segala masa silam aku, aku mintak several things yang jangan berubah. Family aku, teman baik aku dan jugak bf. Sebab diorg tersangat bermakna dan beri kesan dalam hidup aku. Pada family, you guys are my life. Pada Naz, you are my strength. Pada rakan, you guys are my memory, fantasy and reality. Thanks for everything.

Terasa jiwang pulak bila meluah macam ni. Tapi inilah hakikat. And inilah jugak yang aku selalu buat bila aku sesorang. Papa keluar pegi jamming. Along pegi pd ngan membe2 dia. So aku tinggal sesorang la kat rumah. Nak ajak Aisyah keluar, dia baru je balik dari KL, sebab tadi ada class. Aku memang tak ramai kawan kat sini. Aku susah nak rapat dengan orang. Mungkin sebab dari dulu aku sering kena back stabbed, so sampai sekarang aku still hati2 pilih kawan yang boleh dijadikan kawan rapat.

Confession of the untold secrets

Aku pernah ada crush, pada seseorang. A big crush. Waktu tu, aku cuba untuk dapatkan dia. Tapi sayangnye, i've been stabbed by someone yang aku sangat percaya waktu tu. My crush ni minat pada the one yang aku percaya ni and dia pernah mintak couple dengan the one yang aku percaya ni, dan this girl terima, walaupun dia tau yang aku tersangatlah gilakan this guy. Sedangkan dia pulak tak de feeling langsung pada this guy. Well it did break my heart. Teramat sangat. Iyalah, memula that guy layan aku baik je, then suddenly dia diam dan jauh. Rupa-rupanya dia dengan this girl. Tapi diorg togather sekejap je. Kesian that guy. I know that he is really a good guy. Dia tersangat baik. Sampai sekarang aku masih sanjung dia sebagai seorang yang baik. Tapi feeling pada dia of course la dah tak da ye. Well pada pendapat aku, this girl plak, dia macam jeles dengan aku. So dia cuba dapatkan apa yang aku nak atau ada. Until now. She still doin it.

Back to the tittle, "Confession of the untold secrets", hari ni aku telah bukak secret tu pada the guy yang aku pernah ada crush tu. Kesian dia. Until now dia still tak dapat jumpa a girl yang betul-betul sesuai untuk dia. Semuannya sebab dia buat cerita sedih yang dia tak de gf. Well whatever la. Aku tak taulah dia faham ke tak maksud aku. Point yang aku cuba jelaskan pada dia. Hopefully dia tak sebengap mana. So he should understand it perfectly i guess. Tapi aku tak taulah macam mana reaksi dia lepas ni. How he would treat me. Sama ada dia akan menjauhkan diri lagi macam dulu or act seperti biasa.

Bila aku confess pada dia terasa sayu pulak. Tapi aku syukur, sebab aku punya Naz sekarang. Yang sering ada bila aku jatuh dan bangun. Yang sering sudi bila aku ceria dan sunyi. Well life goes around and comes around. Memang apa yang that girl buat pada that guy and aku tak patut. Dia tak patut break hati that guys. And tak patut terima that guy untuk sakitkan hati aku. Aku memang tahu dan dapat rasa dari dulu yang dia cemburukan aku. Lantaklah dia. Malas aku nak fikir pasal dia.

Well pada that guy(the crush), aku harap kau akan jumpa orang yang sesuai untuk kau dan jangan mengadu pada aku lagi yang kau sunyi(hehehe just kidding). Pada that girl, seriously kau memang selalu je tak puas hati dengan aku kan? Ade je yang kau nak buat aku sakit hati. Ada saja orang yang kau cuba rampas dari aku. (Aku cakap orang bukanlah hanya bermaksud teman lelaki or crush, tapi including orang yang kita panggil teman atau kawan). Sampai kawan kita pun tak peduli kan kita. Lantaklah dia. Aku harap kau kena pulau la suatu ketika nanti. Biar kau sedar balik diri tu.

P/S: For Naz, thanks for always be with me, no matter how hard things may seems. Te qiero mucho mi amor...

They steal my picture!

Tak guna betul. Sape nye keje tah, diorg pegi letak gamba aku jadi wallpaper dekat pc library kat INTEC ni. Kat pc 29. Tekejut aku dibuatnye. NI gerenti kes aku lupe delete gamba waktu transfer gune pc tu, then ade mangkuk mane tah buat dajal pegi letak as wallpaper. Tapi nasib la muka tak jelas. So tak de la segan sangat. Serious aku menyumpah-nyumpah sape yang set gamba aku tu jadi wallpaper. Memandai ko je nak tibai gamba org. Hey itu hak cipta terpelihara tau. (Hehehe tau ayat tak leh bla...)Diorg pegi guna gamba yang kat sebelah ni ha.. Aku tau la gamba ni lawa. Tengoklah orgnye...hehehe (tetibe perasan sendiri) Aku dah tuka wallpaper tu.. Hopefully tak de mangkok yang pegi letak balik gamba tu.........

Wannabe...

Kenapa title aku wannabe? Erm sebab aku baru lepas menyaksikan ke-poyoan beberapa orang umat manusia dan aku rasa disgusting sangat tengok perangai manusia-manusia tu. Well it start like this, aku lepak kat Uncle K Kopitiam dengan bf aku as usual la. Then he told me that he met this one guy who was a malaysian hip hop singer, and mamat ni Azan from Ruffadge. Dia cerita la how this guy sapa dia and beborak and ask for numba n etc. Aku tak heran pun, sebab aku proud katakan bf aku memang bagus main flamenco and no wonder kalau Azan tu pun tertarik mendengar.

Lepas dalam 15 minit kitorg beborak sal tu, suddenly Azan muncul. Dia tengur la bf aku dan just senyum je kat aku. Aku pun bukannye kesah sangat la. Memula aku tak perasan sapa yang ada dengan dia waktu tu, btw, Azan tu ada kat sini sebab Echo Park ada baru bukak kat SACC ni. Ok back to the story, waktu tu Azan and pengiring2 dia ni nak pegi makan, ok fine.


Yang sangat ketara bila balik dari makan. Dia tegur bf aku waktu tu, and waktu tu plak kitorg tengah practise lagu 'Lucky' , suddenlly aku baru perasan something, ada this one guy, kitorg panggil dia 'anak seni' sebab dia poyo nak mampos and ada a few reasons lagi la. Sumpah dia poyo nak mampos and wannabe nak mampos, siap pakai cap ala2 hoppers lagi....konon nak join click Azan la tu. Serious aku meluat. Kau bayangkan dia boleh kononnya nak menari ala2 breakdance kat depan meja aku. Nasib aku tak termuntah. And memacam lagi la. Aku pandang bf aku, dia geleng and suh aku sambung practise. Tu satu hal.

Satu lagi, ade sorang lagi tukang escort si Azan ni. minah gedik mane tah, aku perasan dari keluar dari cafe lagi aku nampak Azan ni cuba nak melarikan diri dari minah tu tapi minah ni keep ikut bontot die and keep talking and keep menggedik. Eh kalau tak silap aku bukan Azan tu dah ada bini ke? Seboleh-boleh minah tu tahan dia sampai dia dapat nombo mamat tu. Meluat gile aku tengok wannabe and si gedik tu. Aku tak diorg tak de salah pada aku tapi meluat aku tu membuatkan aku nak tulis pasal ni. Kalau boleh aku nak record nak tunjuk kat korang macam mana aksi2 wannabe dan si gedik tadi.

I wanna go back home...

I'm gonna be homesick again. Argh..., i can't go back this week. It's all because of another damn extra module on this coming sunday. And today i have another replcament class at 3. Gosh, i feel like i wanna skip this class.

And yeah, i'm dead. Next week is my final studio exam. Caklempong, guitar and keyboard skills exam was all on the same day. Damn i hate that. But when it's over, i was the one who will relief...while the rest still waiting for their hunted day. Hehehe...

Owe yeah and guess what, my final chance to perform in forum and pop ensemble next week. For forum of course i have to play 2 clasical song and for pop ensamble i guess i wanna sing 'Lucky' by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat, of course i will perform with my bf. And i might add one more song for pop ensamble, if there had more time for me to practise other songs. But it depends. most probably i will sing that one song. And of course i won't play the guitar. I'm surely be freaking nervous. I'm not gonna risk my final chance for that. Wish me luck..........

P/S: I miss my Hector & Troy..........

Homesick

Dah nak masuk 2 minggu aku tak balik rumah. Homesick...huwa... I miss my dad and also my two fat cats. Hector...Troy...huwa...i miss them. It's all because of the module on last Saturday and Sunday. Well the module on Sunday (Treasure Hunt) is kindda fun, but i still miss home. I miss to cook. Huhuhu... Miss to satistfy my tummy with my own cook. I miss my bed. I miss my teddy at home, Ody (FYI: I have another teddy here at hostel and that's Baby).

Been so busy. My class schadule kindda messed. And today i have class starting at 8.30 am until 10.00pm. Well i have a break around 4 to 7. But still i can't go back to hostel to get some rest. FYI, i have to take two bus to go to the faculty and of course 2 bus to get back as well. My hostel was at the UiTM main campus at section 2, while my Faculty at the INTEC section 17. Everyday i have to wake up 1 and half hour early just to catch the bus to get here. It takes me one hour journey to get here. Well it's not because of the location that too far, but it's because of the public transport. Well we ain't so lucky to have a bus from main campus to section 17. Well we have been complained to our faculty SRC since we was in the fresh year, but until now, it's nothing. And now, it's getting so hard to get a bus from Section 2 bustop to Section 17. It's very rare. Argh..enough for this complaning. It's not like there had someone who will take an action for this.

I miss home. I miss home.... I wish i can go back home today and skip all thus classes. But i have an important class tomorrow. Which is Aural Skills, the subject which i fear the most. Huhu owe and also Theory class. I miss to bully Hector and Troy. There's so many stuff i can do at home without worrying about any policy like at hostel. Especially in downloading movies. Cause back at the hostel, the campus have blocked many websites especially the entertaiment one. I use to download songs from 4shared.com, but now, they have blocked it, just blocked from downloading the songs. Damn...! Owe ya, and as i been complained before, the wifi connection in my room on this semester was damn sucked, most of the time we can't even online at all. If we wanna online, we have to go somewhere else like on the beside or the nearest to my room is at the stairs between the 1st floor and ground floor. But the connection not as good as my room before. In the previous room, i even can get the Streamyx Hotspots connection. But now, damn sucks.

Gosh, why i've been complaining so much? Probably the homesick cause the anger of complaning to blow up i guess. I've been wondering, what was my two fat cats been doing right now. I miss to hug them. Huhuhu... BTW, the pict on the right is Hector and the pict on the middle is Troy. I miss my baby kitty. Owe and i miss my dad too.

I'm back...

I'm back...at home right now. So freakin exhausted. I got a studio exam for mid-term this morning, straight 3 in a row. First it was CakLempong, then my principle studies(guitar), and the last one is choir. But i'm glad that all my miseries for studio exam end all at the same time, owe except for my keyboard skills. It's next week. But it's not a big deal, i've already can play both of those songs. Thank God. Well i just realise that i haven't update for quite a while. I've been busy for sure. And i can't get the connection from my room. If i do wanna online, i have to go to the other block. There is no way i'm going there except if i have too. Well yesterday i went to Shah Alam Lake Garden with my bf. He forced me to practise my exam today, and here was some of my pict that he takes. He forced me to practise and i forced him to take my latest pict for my profile. Hehehehe.....

His fave shot

My fave shot

My full fave shot