That's what friend are for....

She has done everything that she can to help me when i'm down. Really falling down. Sometimes she did annoyed me, but she always there when i really need her. I'm lucky to have her as a friend. We're diffrent for each other, from style, behaviour, taste of a guy, food etc. But we still can be close as we like siblings. She has save me from the crisis that i have been talking about the past few post. Thanks Syah...i really apriciate it.... You're my best friend ever....

Stressed

Honestly, i'm so stressed right now. I feel like i wanna cry. Well i did cry, but only for a few second the i wipe it away cause i don't anyone else to see that i'm crying. I feel so down right now. Feels like i wanna go back home and sleep, and forget about all this things that seems like a nightmare to me. There's a lot of stuff that bothering my mind right now. I'm so stressed. Everything seems so complicated right now. With everything, studies, my emotion, my situation etc. Everybody may find me ok from how i act, but they never knew what i'm thinking inside.

During this semester, i have been ignore all the complicated stuff in my life, and i still can handle it one by one. But now, everything seems so messed up. I don't know what else to do. I'm tired of all this emotion pressure. Feels like my head wanna blow up. But when i think back, it probably because of this... Here is a poem that i wrote and might have to do with something in my life.

I've been ignoring you for some times

And i know it was a crime.

I've been making mistakes over and over again

Even while that, you never leave me in pain.

You give me everything that i request

And what i've giving back to you, was such a mess.

I know that i have beem appologise for a thousand times

But now i have to face the music for the punishment to my crimes.

I know that you still love me

Ever since i was born as a baby.

You light my way every night and day

You give me hope by teaching me to pray.

Once again i'm lost and far from your way

You punish me now and let me astray.

But i do understand the price to pay

For repeating the mistakes every single day.

Twilight

I just watched the movie 'Twilight' that i got from Erin. Well it's a last year movie, but i haven't watch it yet. The vampire family is so cute. Robert Pattison who plays Edward in the film, was such a hottie. Well it's not easy for me to said someone is a hottie. Gosh..this story attract me by the character, not by the storyline. Well it's a sweet story. Can't wait to watch the Twilight 2nd.

Well after watching this movie, i suddenly crazy about this one song, 'From this moment' original by Shania Twins. Well to me, seems like the song suite for this Twilight movie, well it just from my opinnion. Well whatever. Gosh...i'm outside right now, at the stairs. Been bitten by bugs and mosqitos like crazy. So itch.

Memang macam s**l!

Tak guna punya bus driver! Memang nak kena maki berbakul dengan aku. Aku dah tercegat depan bus stop tu die boleh jalan terus je. Bukan aku sorang je yang bediri kat depan tu, ada several lagi. Bodoh! Tak guna. Orang dah tahan pun kau boleh jalan menonong lagi. Bukannya full pun dalam bus kau tu! Dah dasar kap lam tu, kap lam la jugak! Tak gune! Sebab kaulah aku lambat balik bilik. Sebab kaulah aku tak dapat nak pegi jumpe buah ati aku. Sebab aku dah penat tunggu next bus. Tak guna punya bus driver. Memang patutlah kau jadi driver bus je pon! Tak gune!!!!! Tensionnye aku dengan bus kat sect 17 ni...

Homesick

Dah nak masuk 2 minggu aku tak balik rumah. Homesick...huwa... I miss my dad and also my two fat cats. Hector...Troy...huwa...i miss them. It's all because of the module on last Saturday and Sunday. Well the module on Sunday (Treasure Hunt) is kindda fun, but i still miss home. I miss to cook. Huhuhu... Miss to satistfy my tummy with my own cook. I miss my bed. I miss my teddy at home, Ody (FYI: I have another teddy here at hostel and that's Baby).

Been so busy. My class schadule kindda messed. And today i have class starting at 8.30 am until 10.00pm. Well i have a break around 4 to 7. But still i can't go back to hostel to get some rest. FYI, i have to take two bus to go to the faculty and of course 2 bus to get back as well. My hostel was at the UiTM main campus at section 2, while my Faculty at the INTEC section 17. Everyday i have to wake up 1 and half hour early just to catch the bus to get here. It takes me one hour journey to get here. Well it's not because of the location that too far, but it's because of the public transport. Well we ain't so lucky to have a bus from main campus to section 17. Well we have been complained to our faculty SRC since we was in the fresh year, but until now, it's nothing. And now, it's getting so hard to get a bus from Section 2 bustop to Section 17. It's very rare. Argh..enough for this complaning. It's not like there had someone who will take an action for this.

I miss home. I miss home.... I wish i can go back home today and skip all thus classes. But i have an important class tomorrow. Which is Aural Skills, the subject which i fear the most. Huhu owe and also Theory class. I miss to bully Hector and Troy. There's so many stuff i can do at home without worrying about any policy like at hostel. Especially in downloading movies. Cause back at the hostel, the campus have blocked many websites especially the entertaiment one. I use to download songs from 4shared.com, but now, they have blocked it, just blocked from downloading the songs. Damn...! Owe ya, and as i been complained before, the wifi connection in my room on this semester was damn sucked, most of the time we can't even online at all. If we wanna online, we have to go somewhere else like on the beside or the nearest to my room is at the stairs between the 1st floor and ground floor. But the connection not as good as my room before. In the previous room, i even can get the Streamyx Hotspots connection. But now, damn sucks.

Gosh, why i've been complaining so much? Probably the homesick cause the anger of complaning to blow up i guess. I've been wondering, what was my two fat cats been doing right now. I miss to hug them. Huhuhu... BTW, the pict on the right is Hector and the pict on the middle is Troy. I miss my baby kitty. Owe and i miss my dad too.

Her

Silent rainy night

She holds her teddy tight

The melancholy of “Concerto de Aranjuez” reasoning in her ears

The loneliness of hope coming to her fears

She feel lost that could never imagine

She search for hope that no one have given

Only she, herself know what it was

Only both of them, shares, that the secrets she have to trust

The rest didn’t knows what inside her

That hiding behinds the lover

No one know what’s get through her

All the agony and painful that hurts her

The secrets she keeps inside

Still wasn’t falling to the right side

Melancholy and agony

Both of it like a symphony

Symphony that like a hurricane to her mind and soul

When she’s down and there’s no one to hold

Have you really love a women?

Have you really love a women? Well it is the tittle of a song from Bryan Adams. It's an old song i guess. But i just know it recently when my bf accidentally download it when he wanna find some Paco De Lucia (He is a famous flamenco composer. His song really good and also challenging) songs. Because according to the tittle "Bryan Adams & Paco De Lucia - When you really love a women", then he just download it. Well about the correct tittle of the song, I'm not so sure which one was the correct one, but i guess, "Have you really loved a women", cause i ask a friend about the tittle and he said, probably that one. But whatever...as long as when can hear this sweet song.

This song was specially dedicated to a women, the lyric was so meaningfull and i fall in love with it. Well this song actually was my recent favorite lulubay. Before i went to sleep, my bf normally sing me a song, and this is the recent lulubay song that he always sings for me. Well what can i say, he's really pampering me. Hehehe... Well IL Divo have made a cover version for this song in Spanish version if I'm not mistakes. Well here i put a clip by the original singer, Bryan Adams . Hope you enjoy.

Bryan Adams