Childhood Crush

First of all, i wanna wish congrats to all of my buddies yang baru je grad siang tadi. Sorry aku tak datang convo, ade masalah dunia dengan Encik Naz.

Oh maybe you may think it's the old Naz, Nazire rite? Nope! But it's Nazrul. He was my childhood crush since i was 10 years old. I have a huge crush on him for so freaking long time. Suddenly one day, recently, i found him at FB. Then i add him. Well i didn't expect anything just hoping he could accept then that's it la. Then suddenly he msg me on FB. I'm so freaking amazed and excited. While on that night i have a McD annual dinners party. Due to excited because he msg me, then after that we exchange number and keep texting each other on the phone, i didn't really enjoy the annual dinner party. Ramai yang ajak enjoy, join the dance floor...but I'm not in mood. All i wanna be while that is with my cell phone.

He really makes me flying without wings. Gosh i dunno what else to said. It's like a dreams come true. I have been waiting for this moment for so long, and now God finally answer my wish.

Honestly he's not the typical guy that i use to date. He kindda 'mulut puaka' type of person. And aku memang selalu kena sembur dengan die especially about my appearance, sebab dia cakap sexy sangat. WTF? Sexy ke haku? Tak de makne! And one more thing, he's black. Tapi hitam manis la kate org. Aku punya taste kan memang pelik.

And now, we're kindda flirting with each other, but haven't declare anything yet. Oh and yg tambah buat aku berbunga-bunga, he said that he have a crush on me too during high school... Tapi si blacky sengal lagi ego itu tak reti nak tegur aku! Very the vavi one. Heh!

Damn!!!!!!!! And you're the place my life begins, and you will be the end, i'm flying without wings... Kali ni aku sure, aku tak bertepuk sebelah tangan lagi macam masa zaman sekolah dulu. Nak tengok rupe die? Nanti dulu...sampai masa aku show ye pict die nanti :P

Danial

Damn you Danial! Pandai kau kelentong aku! Mati-mati aku ingatkan kau umur kau memang lagi tua dari aku. Tapi kuasa Tuhan nak tunjuk kau ni kelentong jugak kan?! Ha...amek kau! Kan aku dah bawak lari matrix card ko...

Tapi sekarang ni aku pulak yang ada masalah! Damn you Danial! Sekarang ni kau pulak yang buat aku angau selepas Mr. Chipsmore. Muka kau memang matured, dan badan ko tinggi macam galah dan itulah yang membuat aku tertipu dengan kata kau yang kau ni dah tue dari aku. Tak pasal-pasal la aku ter'angau' kat kau! Tapi aku tak taulah kali ni berapa lama pulak aku angau. Biasanya aku kalau angau paling lama seminggu dua, lepas tu, sembuhlah penyakit angau ku itu.

Damn you Danial! Puas melilau aku carik kau pasal nak bagi balik card matrix kau. Kau kata kau ada practise kat bilik cak lempong, tapi haram! At last bila aku nak pergi lab library, best je aku tengok kau dan Afiq tengah relax sambil main chest! Aku rase macam nak lepuk je kau kuat2. Tapi sebaliknye, aku just cubit kau je! Dan aku tau memang saket. Ramai yang tak tahan bila kena cubit dengan aku sebab kuku aku ni kuku pisau! Tajam..

Aku rasa macam nak main kejar-kejar je dengan kau tadi untuk tak membenarkan kau dapat card matrix kau balik. Tapi kau cakap kau ada class theory. Class cik Rita pulak tu. So sebab aku sangat respect pada cik Rita, dan aku pun pulangkan la matrix card kau dengan segera. Tapi rasa sedikit menyesal pon ada. Kalau la aku simpan card kau lama-lama, boleh kita-main kejar2 lagi kan?! Motifnye aku nak menggedik dengan kau la...sambil nak dengar si Afiq gelak evil.....hehehe Mak jah pun suke dengan gelak evil si Afiq itu.

Tapi honestlly, aku tak berminat nak scandal atau ber'couple' dengan budak faculty. Plus, kau lagi muda dari aku dan telah berada dalam rejected list aku. Tak pe, kite jadi member main kejar-kejar ye.

Damn! Kenapelah aku asyik teringat senyum kau yang sweet tu. Aku ingat lagi 1st time aku notice kau masa kat kita pergi keynote dekat lim kok wing. Kau agak stylo dari yang lain. Tapi aku just anggap kau budak-budak hingusan la sebab aku tau kau tu juniour aku.

Damn you Danial! Aku rasa macam nak curik je card matrix kau lagi! Huhuhu....

Go away

Please go away and get out of my life. Even though i there's some times i do miss you, but thus feeling will go away. Soon... Just get out of my life. Every time i remember about it, all i can do is take a deep breath and let it go slowly...with hopes that all thus memory will fade away...forever... I know I'm stronger. Just please get out of my life. And i won't cry for you anymore. That's my promise!

A little bit of life.........

Things get a little complicated this lately. There had several of unexpected things happen. To the roomies...the one that i called you OA, i'm sorry. You didnt deserve that. And to my boyfie....please take a day off, and lets go and have some fun. Movies, bowling, kareoke etc. And to myself...please wake up from your day dreaming... It's time to face the music.......... Owe i guess that's for now, i'm kindda blur....out of words....

adios.........

Goodbye 2009... Welcome 2010

Goodbye 2009... There's been a lot of unspoken things that i have been through. Some are simple, some are rough and some even more complicated then it use to be... 2009 leave a lot of memories....either it good or sad. But at least 2009 I'm not alone. Naz was always there for me. Thanks my dear.

Family, we've been so together. Owe my cousin got engaged last week, congrats Kak Ita. Abg Zizi is so nice.... Well we've having so much fun during the engagement day... even some idiot spoil our mood we're there had been some stupid argument of a stupid matters, but we still had some fun. Especially when the 6 of us (all the cousin) went to Seri Menanti Old Castle with 2 photographer for a shoot. It was really fun........

The four of us...Adik, Along, Me & Dek Ya (One of us, Kak Long, the one who took the pic)

Abang Zizi & Kak Ita..

All those pict from our cam. I miss my cousin so much... Erm in the same year, i got a new niece... but it my cousin on my dad side kids. I don't remember her name. Sorry little one. Well it's been 3 years since mum passed away...and it's been 3 years since Hector & Troy, my two fat lazy cats live with us.

Faculty...erm...been much better then the first time i started it, but still can't manage to control my nerves either during the forum or exam. And sucks, i didnt get collage for this semester. Damn...i'm going to appeal, but part of me wanted to experiance on staying outside the campus... But i'm so so sure that my dad and my bro totally 100% dont agree with that. Whatever....

My love life...well it's been so nice....but there also had some little arguement once in a while, but we managed to sattle it. He always be there for me. Thanks my dear... Every single little things makes us closer and closer....

And now..... hello and welcome 2010. I hope this year would be much much better from the past. I hope there would be a miracle to makes our life even better then before..

Happy new Year everyone.......

Old

Feels like I'm getting old. Why am I saying that? Well last Friday. I went to my aunt house. The big family on my late mum side gathering plus a preparation for my cousin sister engagement day. It's been 3 years i haven't seen all my cousin. We're just contact through the cell or internet. I feels so weird, meeting them after this 3 years.

My youngest little cousin just turn 8 last Saturday. They all have grown up fast. The one who last i saw them when they was in primary school, right now already in high school... And they seems so big to me. And i feel weird about it. Probably it because before this, i have seen them grown up in front of my eyes... I'm more close to the cousin on my mum side instead of my dad. But since my mum passed away, we usually spend our time with my dad's side. And for the past 3 years, I've been close to them instead of mum side.

Gosh, now i realize how i miss them. Especially, Dek Ya, my cousin who was at the same age as mine. We're grown up together. Right now i feel old. And I'm not a teenager anymore... I'm a women. Gosh... Feels so weird...

Owe...i can't wait for my cousin engagement day. Well i guess it's because i have a crush her engagement photographer....hehehe just kidding. Well i met them last Friday if I'm not mistakes, at Mid Valley, where i follow my cousin sis to buy sum of her stuff. Lol...silly me....

Return

It's been a while since my last post. I'm not really in mood to write stuff. Well i watch 2012 last week. Menarik... And cry juga la. Tetiba touching... Bila tiba-tiba terbayangkan kita in that situation. Menunggu ajal. Sedih. I miss shah alam. I really am. Rasa bosan di rumah. Rasa macam tak da life. Whatever....

Owe...tak sabar nak tunggu 'New Moon'.... Benci! Kat US hari Jumaat lepas dah keluar. Kat sini 26 nov ni baru keluar. Benci! Damn...i dunno why, but suddenly...lately ni, i'm so so and so in love with Robert Thomas Pattison. The one who play Edward Cullen dalam Twilight tu... Gosh.... Dah lama aku tak rasa gilakan seseorg artis sampai camni. He's such a damn hottie.

Dah lama rasanya tak tulis poems... I want to write...tapi tak de idea dan tak de mood. I miss Naz.... I hope i can write something for him. Something special...

Owe and just chat with Zaki... He's sounds so regret for letting me go... But it serves him well i guess.... After all thus years that he had done to me...erm...whatever la...

I'm just blur rite now....feels so empty... Aku tak tau ape yg boleh buat aku happy sekarang... Rasa macam something misssing....

Erm....it's almost 4 am now.... Going to sleep....Gud nite

Sedihnye

Sedihnya sebab jari aku pendek. Dan sebab jari aku pendek jugak, aku tak dapat nak main lagu 'Concerto De Aranjuez', 2nd movement. Sedih...dah la kena kutuk dengan Naz jari pendek. Lepas tu dia suruh aku tukar guitar pada size yang lagi kecik supaya sesuai untuk aku. Tapi aku sayangkan 1st guitar classical aku tu. Huhuhu... Tak kesampaian aku nak bawak lagu tu untuk 'Showcase'. Sedih....

Unfaithful again?

First of all...happy belated birthday to me...yeah... Hehehe.... well my birthday on August 28 last month, but I'm too lazy to write in this blog but now I'm updating again. Owe and happy birthday to Azie also.... dah tua :p. Hehehehe... Owe..well as i grown older, my present pun jadi semakin sikit. Sedih...huhu. Well...i got an Amethyst heart shape ring from Naz, talking about the lover...he just call...:). And i got a Gucci purse from Aisyah, well technically from Aizat i guess, cause he was the one who go aboard and buy it for me and not her! But as what Syah claim, it's a gift from her. So accept jelah. She's my best friend.

The ring from the lover.

The purse from the best friend.

Well....erm what else...owe i've already received the kimono dress that i ordered from Smashing Pit Stop. Really cute. I don't have the picture right now, maybe I'll post it later. Cause I'm using my home pc instead of my lappy. The kimono is so cute....and of course it's a brown colour again. I guess i would match with my new choco white heels. Hope so. Ain't test it yet. I just love brown colour. t's easy for me to match with other colour.

Okey, back to the main topic, unfaithful again. Erm...well there's a story about that. Well of course it is. Silly me. Erm...well before i begin..... here are some old poems that i wrote for two person....and erm....just read it.

As I promise myself to be faithful to him

Even though sometimes he makes my life bright in dim
As the time goes by
Curiosity makes me want to cry
As I lonely through the night alone
Someone come and try to heal the wound
As the courage of loyalty getting weaker
I’m lost in my own fear
I break my own wall
As I’m going down to fall
As the kiss had change everything
I’m lost in our dreams
To them, I feel so guilty
It be a sin, that hunts me until eternity
I’m afraid to lose them both
But I know, I just make it worst
I realize the thing that I’ve done
And now, I’m out of no where to run
Just waiting in the cold
For them to know, that I’m unfaithful…

1.28 PM
January 3, 2007
(Unfaithful)

And what's the connection between this poems is that, the same person that I've been flirting with during those time. Well i guess i shouldn't reveal his name. Cause he's married now. But still erm. I just chat with him at facebook, owe and he try to flirt with me again...just like before. Before it's different cause he's still single and i'm with the damn old bf who so psychotic, but now he's married and I'm with my beloved caring boyfie that i promise i will never be unfaithful like before.

Well i can't deny that part of me sort of jealous with me. Cause i do like that guy, but too bad, when we met each other like 3 years ago, he was already have someone special... Too bad for me. Well i guess i like him because of how he treats me, and ain't like the psychotic ex-bf. But thank God i have Naz now.

Gosh...why am i so jealous? For got sake, i don't even have a big crush on him but why am i feel like this? Gosh...i'm dead if Naz find out. Erm what ever. As long as i keep the promise to myself that i will never flirt again and that's it. I won't be unfaithful again...except if some start it up again... Then that's a diffrent story...

Well got to go...owe and i wish him happy with his wife...and from the picture that i saw from the facebook, i guess they are...

After a while

It's been quite a while since i last update my blog. Well there had some few interesting stuff that i have been through with lots of laugh and fun. Owe the new semester have begins. My roommates for this sem should be Wanie, Abi and Ika. But since Wanie wanna check out from the collage and staying with her sister at section 7, there had one empty bed left in our room. But then one day this one girl call Wanie and asked her for her place and Wanie said yes. Cause she really want to get her name out from the hostel unit system so that she can apply for non resident stickers.

But the i find out that she register the collage under Wanie's name and i told her, and she was freaking out. She try to call this girl Ja, the one who replace her, but she didnt pick up her phone. The she straight call the hostel unit which lucky there still had some staff who picking up the phone even the office hours already end around 1 hour. After she inform the hostel units, suddenly the girl, Ja, calls her back. Wanie ask her for an explanation and i guess she couldn't explain kot. I dunno. But when i get back from the faculty that night, her stuff was gone. totally clean like there's no one have been there before. I quickly told Wanie and onece again she freakingg out. Well just whatever. Owe after that, i told kak Oliver, the one who still didnt get a room, she was in the hostel appealing list. I told her that our room was empty and because of bla bla bla..... Then i told her if she wants a room, then quickly go to the office and let them know about it.

Yesterday when i was at the faculty, kak Annete message me, saying that kak Oliver asking me to duplicate my room key. Then when i get back from faculty, i was told that she got the excat from while she was appealing even she didn't stated which room that she want. So...right now, officially and legally, kak Oliver was our new roommates who replacing Wanie's place.

Owe k, that was yesterday story. But let's look at back some previous one's.

July 6, 2009

I cut my hair.... Changging my hair image.

This pict was taken on July 7, 2009 at Alamanda, before we sent my Along for his interview at Lim Kok Wing University

July 11, 2009

Owe...i went out with Khairul after haven't seen him for 2 years. He wanted to see me so badly before he fly to Tokyo on the 15, and got back to Canada. It's kindda funny. We went for lunch at The Summit. Owe and on our way back, we're having an accident while he was busy trying to seduce me in the car. None of us had any injury. Just for the car. LOL. And it was his cousin car. I dunno how he explain it to his cousin. Well here a pict between me and him.. ah...so sweet...and i'm dead if Naz find out! Huhuhu. Sorry sayang.

Me and Khairul at Johnny's The Summit.

On the same day, after get back from seeing this 'jantan gatal', i have to move my stuff to my room cause i'm put it Paie's room. I dont have the new key for my room while dat. And no one was in the room so i couldn't get in. Owe and here had a pict of Paie playing with my stuff owe and she looks really horrible...

She looks like 'perempuan gila' who usually mumbling around with a flower in her head...Just look at her...aren't they just the same? Hehehe

July 12, 2009

Aiman, Jenny and i, went to KLCC to watch some MPO concert. It's kindda fun even we miss the finale songs. It's all because during the break, Jenny wanna go and grab something to eat and i wanted to go to Vincci to find some new slippers. Well here had some pict of us while eating Lasange at the foodcourt.

Jannah @ Jenny Marjeena busy finishing Aiman's lasange.



Aiman busy with her cell.

While me, busy bullying them...hehehe but...my pict sucks...Jenny dunno how to framming.. huh (geram)

July 14, 2009

I went to the faculty with Aiman this morning and i complaining that i'm hungry. As soon as we arrived at the faculty, we go and grab something to eat at the INTEC cafe in front of the block F. Then when we on our way back to our block, Aiman wanted to walk at the back side of the cafe. Which there had a field behind there that we use to have our faculty family day. Then there had some tree captivating her eyes. She quickly 'merengek' to me to take the tree picture and i as her model. Well had some pict....it's really nice.

Wearing a formal attire because we have a forum today. Owe and some said that i look slimmer then before. Hehehe *blush*




Aiman getting weird...

Owe at night, we're having some fun inside the room. I keep bully Ieja and she keep running away. After tired bullying her, i curl up Abi's hair and then after that, Miera, Ieja and i, making a makeover to Abi and here was the resualt. hehehehe

"The Tartan Witch" From the beg, the blouse until the legging, everything was tartan.

Papa

Happy birthday papa,

I love you so much
With all my heart

May God bless your life and give you all the miracle that you need.

Happy birthday, I love you.

Just Another Beautiful Disaster

She’s just the sweet honey bee

That everyone thought her pretending to be

She’s just another beautiful disaster

That everyone keep taking advantage of her

She’s not another bitch that played everyone’s heart

But she just afraid of her heart to get touched

She’s not the girl who loves every man

She just the one who will vow for one until the end

Unfaithful

As I promise myself to be faithful to him
Even though sometimes he makes my life bright in dim
As the time goes by
Curiosity makes me want to cry
As I lonely through the night alone
Someone come and try to heal the wound
As the courage of loyalty getting weaker
I'm lost in my own fear
I break my own wall
As I'm going down to fall
As the kiss had change everything
I'm lost in our dreams
To them, I feel so guilty
It be a sin, that hunts me until eternity
I'm afraid to lose them both
But I know, I just make it worst
I realize the thing that I've done
And now, I'm out of no where to run
Just waiting in the cold
For them to know, that I'm unfaithful

1.28 PM
January 3, 2007

P/S: One of my old poems....I'm sorry

Server Down

Well...tajuk server down ni sebenarnye, x delah kena mengena dengan connection internet yang slalu menyakitkan hati kita semua bila dia buat hal. Tapi berkenaan dengan diri aku yang lately ni asyik breakdown. Memula mental breakdown. Ganggu aku nak buat kerja. Isi penting dah ada, nak buat ayat aku tetibe blur. Hampir sepanjang waktu keje jugaklah aku kena mental breakdown ni. Tapi nasiblah petang semalam ada perlawanan badminton kat tempat praktikal aku tu, dapatlah jugak release tension and tenangkan mental yg breakdown ni. Btw, mental breakdown tu semalam.

Hari ni pulak, emotion breakdown. Aku tak tau kenapa, tetibe emo sangat sampai kena kacau Naz yang tengah ada class tu, kenalah sayang aku tu memujuk sambil menenangkan. Sabar je la die dengan kerenah aku ni. Teruk punya breakdown...sampai mata aku merah la. Tapi of course la aku tak melalak depan org mcm sesetengah umat. Memula aku dok kt bilik tv cuba control emotion, then tetibe ade malaun sekor ni nyanyi lagu yang buat aku terus rase nak melalak. Terus lari ke surau and melalak sesorang kat situ.

Muka baru lepas melalak. Mata dah kurang merah.

Lately ni ada org hitting on aku. Hitting dengan cara main tarik tali. Bencinye. Aku paling tak boleh bla bile terpandang mata playboy die tu. Bergegar kejap satu badan. Mampos kena cincang aku kalau Naz tau. Huhuhu. Aku cuba buat gab, dia cuba menggatal rapat. Lantaklah lu mamat. Jangan bini lu carik wa kata wa menggatal kat laki dia sudah.

Owe, fyi, aku kena jadi mc untuk program 'Bintang Asli Remaja' peringkat zon selatan. And one n9 punya wakil, adik kepada Kak Cik @ Kak Fazura Violin tu. Nama dia Fazli. So just nak wish him good luck and all the best. Owe and i need a luck too. Aku dah la stage fright, cik mat menggatal pegi letak aku jadi mc, mau gagap aku atas stage nanti. Nasib aku bukan sesorg. Aku ngan KC. KC pon 2 kali 5 aku jugak, x reti nak beckp. Gabungan yang sangat padanlah tu cik mat. Kalau annocement tak lancar jangan salahkan kitorg erk. Kitorg dh cube buat yang the best.

Erm ape lagi erk aku nak membebel?

Owe ye...yang perlawanan badminton tu, aku ngan partner aku menang. Hehehe...aku partner dengan Lee (bdk practical UM tu) and dia memang bagus. Lucky for me...hehehe. Thanks Lee.

Owe and i guess that's for now kot.

I miss you

I miss him so much..........

I miss all those moment......


Suddenly missing him like crazy....huwa.....

Temasya Mengemping

Semalam, adalah hari yang memenatkan sampai aku tak sempat nak online, terus tido. Asalnya aku kena jadi urus setia dalam Temasya Mengemping semalam, tapi last minute, hari jumaat lepas, budda-budak music kat JKKNS tu panggil aku ngan Farah tok naik atas. Diorg suruh kami buat tumbuk kalang. Memula excited la, tapi bila dah buat, penat siot. Dah la tempo laju, pastu kena tumbuk sepanjang lagu tu. Nasib la lagu tu tak lama sangat dalam 2 minit lebih. Tapi tu pun lenguh jugaklah. Plus memula masuk je diorg dah bagi aku tempo yang paling laju. Sampai kejang kejap urat tangan aku.

Lepas tu pulak, tetibe diorg suruh jadi back up singer untuk this one song, "Riwayat Petani", ok la. Well sebenarnya Temasya Mengemping ni memang ada berkenaan dengan padi la. Tah camne tah, aku pun tak sure. Aku pegi jer. Tapi aku tak tengok pon diorg buat ape. Busy bersiap kt belakang stage. Asal aku kena back up satu lagu je, and satu lagu lagi tumbuk kalang, bila dah kat stage terus 3 lagu aku kena. Hampeh sey....pastu bagi aku pakai satu baju je, baju kebaya untuk tumbuk kalang yang maha menggatalkan kulit aku dan maha ketat. Aku agak tensi jugaklah sket dengan some of the dancers tu. Tapi some of them ok.

Semalam, bertolak dari Seremban pukul 6 pagi, owe lupa, temasya tu buat kat Simpang Pertang, Jelebu. Giler dalam dan ulu. And then balik sampai kat Taman Budaya balik dalam pukul 9 mlm. Kitorg keluar sebelum matahari terbit dan balik selepas matahari terbenam. Paling aku tak tahan masa kat sana, cuaca. Panas sey... Habis cair make up aku. Plus aku nye make up pun bukannya tebal sangat macam yang lain. Tebal sey make up diorg. Macam tepun gomak. Tapi tak kata la, diorg tu dancers.

The musician, sangat relax. Honestly diorg memang bagus dan mantap. Aku salute kat Along and Abang Cimau (Sebab diorg tu fave aku. hehehe. the rest pon ok gak), diorg mmg tip top. Tapi sayangnya...sound system cam haprak. Dah la tak cukup mike. Pastu org yang jage audio tu mangkok, sampai tak denga suara penyanyi and back up. Buat spoil performance jer. Kalau org JKKNS memang dah kena maki dah, tapi disebabkan diorg tu dari Jabatan Penerangan, terpaksalah akur je.

Well ni ada a few pict yang aku sempat amek. Semua busy sampai nak bergambar pon terlupa. Nanti aku cuba try dptkn gamba performance.

Dengan Kak Lily, a dancer selaku back up singer. Tapi waktu temasya tu die just jd back up singer jer. Gosh gelapnye kulit aku...huhuhu

With Abang Cimau. The keyboardist. Gosh my face look so funny in this pict.

With Afiq. Adik pada singer band pada hari tu, Kak Aisyah Wahid.

Practical & ARtWoRk

Well, today is my 3rd day as a practical student at JKKNS (Jabatan Kebudayaan Kesenian Negeri Sembilan). Yesterday been such a thuff day. I have to be the at the front desk cause the front desk girl had an audition for ASWARA. Damn i hate being at the front desk. Being the operator who connected lines to this and that etc. I'm not a good talker. Damn it! Every each second i prayed for the phone not to rang, cause i'm afraid that i'm can't handle the talk on my own. What do you expect, it's my 2nd day.

The day before( the 1st day), all i had to do is search for a song and download it, but thank to the damn broadband, i can't finished the download there. Thank God i can finish it at home. Owe back to the main point, no one thought me how to use the damn phone and how to answer it etc. I'm not a good speaker. So i don't think i can hadle that. But thank God the day is over. Owe i got back from work around 8 sumthin. Thanks to the damn meeting who involves us all (the practical student, there were 5 of us. 3 others from UM), so we have to stay until the meeting over at 7.30 pm. I'm so exhausted. But even i'm busy with the front desk, i still got a time to play my baby guitar.

Well the head music department, En. Yuzi ask me to bring my guitar, he wanna hear me play and perhaps that we can create something from Mandolin (he play's the Mandolin, kindda cute) and classical guitar and combined it togather.

Owe well move on to the next main tittle, the ARtWoRk. Well this evening, after our Asistant Director, Cik Mat, went to the RTM Negeri Sembilan at sg. Gadut, replacing our Director, i don't know where the hell he have been, cause haven't meet him yet ever since i got in for practical, back to main point, all the staff feels relief after Datuk Rais Yatim, the Minister of Information, Communication & Cultures, done with his tour and meeting at our place. Well, Cik Mat accompanied him to the RTM. All of us seems like have nothing to do at the office, except me, have to done some of Kak Linda's work (one of the staff), all of the staff were chatting, gossiping, eating, sleeping etc. Such as being so lazy. Including the all the practical student except me and Farah, cause i'm doing Kak Linda's work and Farah was on her day off that she ask for her driving test. Kc's, one of the UM students, using the computer at my place cause i'm using the pc at his place, sort of like we're exchanging place with each other. I have to do my work at his place cause i have to use the thumbdrive, the pc at my seats are ting-tong, can't detect the thumbdrive. So Kc was playing some of the games at my place. Then after bored with the games, he drawing something, ain't using any art pen or else, only a mouse, he create this one looks that attract me, but too bad he already erase it. But i manage to take a 2 of the painting that he aint close neither save yet, before he erase it for the second times. To me it's kindda cute.

KC'S first stuff

KC'S 2nd stuff

Aiman's Stuff

Damai yang hilang

Bila mata tertutup, bibir terkedu
Bila air mata ini surut, bibir diam membisu
Kenapa perlu lagi air mata mengalir, sedangkan bahagia di depan mata
Kenapa perlu duka yang lahir, sedangkan kesetiaan jelas ternyata
Menguntai sebuah erti puisi, sambil mengalunkan sekalung melodi

Indahnya rahmat seribu erti, melutut merayu terduduk menanti

Damai yang hilang sudah lama dicari, diri terasa kosong
Kehidupan yang tenang sudah lama berlalu pergi, jalan terasa serong
Aku merintih pada kedamaian yang hilang
Pulanglah pada aku sekarang
Aku butuhkan kamu yang membuatku tenang

Kembali tenang seperti camar yang terbang

Jauh

Aku terasa jauh
Yang bikin hati aku kian luluh
Terasa aneh, terasa pelik
Aku hilang punca
Aku kian derita
Aku terasa sendirian
Walau aku punya ramai teman
Terasa seperti semangatku semakin pergi
Jauh berlari
Setiap detik yang mendatang, terasa berat untuk di tempuh
Setiap semangat yang hilang, semakin kuat membuatku rapuh
Setiap kenangan berlalu, tersirat seribu satu rahsia
Setiap kasih yang ku seru, berlalu seperti sebelumnya
Dan setiap kali aku menyembah pada yang maha Esa, terasa diri ini penuh cela
Setiap kali aku memohon dariNya, terasa seperti aku tak layak untuk mendapatnya

Tears on the summer midnight

The tears that fall, getting faster every second.
The fears that she feel, getting stronger being a burden.
The agony that she kept inside, once reveal during the summer night.
The dignity that keep her pride, once being break during the trouble she's fight.
As she doubt on her life, the voice inside kept her alive.
As she failed to succeed her strength, the love inside keep kiss away her pain.
As she feel the appreciation started to get weak, but she fail to avoid the heat.

As the anger turn to be sad, as the doubt of her turn to be bad.