Another same situation...

Another same new year celebration. Just at home, in front of my lappy. Bored isn't it? Well this is life. The real life. Well tadi aku masak, meggi goreng je tapi bukan meggi goreng instant, ni buat sendiri nye erk...but then aku terlebih masih. Aku pun tak perasan brapa banyak thus mixing stuff aku letak, then bila hidang kat papa....die tak nak makan. sebab masin. Papa aku memang cerewet. So aku yang tengah blur waktu tu pun tak tau nak buat ape. Terkaku seketika. Tak teringat pun nak pegi petik limau kat tepi bilik abang aku tu. Kesudahannya papa aku kuar pegi jamming tanpa makan. Well for sure aku rasa dissapointed, tapi nak buat camne, benda dah jadi.

Sepatutnya aku kena ada kat faculty sekarang ni. Sebab kena arrange class guitar aku yang start hari ni. Disebabkan aku malas nak balik Shah Alam, so aku skip la guitar lesson untuk hari ni. Plan asal aku nak jumpa Naz hari ni, tapi disebabkan hari Isnin lepas punya plan tak menjadi, aku dengan memandainya cancel sendiri. This week saja sangat banyaklah benda yang buat aku dissapointed happen. Nak tak nak kena accept jelah. Aku rindu nak balik Shah Alam. Sebab kat sana aku bebas nak pegi memana, nak buat apa. Tapi dalam masa yang sama aku tak sampai hati nak tinggalkan papa sorang-sorang kat rumah. Yelah, since mama tak de, papa memang tinggal sesorang bila aku dan along balik ke kolej. Sebab tu aku selalu balik every weekend, sebab tak nak biar dia sesorang. I miss my mum. Masuk tahun ni, dah dua tahun dia pergi. Well dah takdir kan?

Erm...whatever it is, tahun ni Negeri Sembilan memang tak de New Year Celebration, due to the death of our last Yang Dipertuan Besar, kalau tak boleh jugak aku pergi celebrate kat seremban je. Huhuhu.... So aku pun duduklah rumah. Mengadap lappy yang sering menyakitkan hari. New Year pada aku rasa macam hari-hari biasa saja. Nak kata azam baru? I tak pernah ada. Sebab aku tau aku takkan buat. So aku hanya akan buat bila aku rasa nak buat. Tak payah ada azam new year pun tak pe. Belum tentu lagi akan terlaksana. Erm...aku just nak wish everyone Happy New Year...so enjoy your celebration, (well aku tak pernah pun dapat join new year celebration sebenarnya) and may God bless ya......(aku pun tak taulah ape nak cakap and merepek lagi). To Wanie...my beloved roomates....owe...aku skarang roomates dengan Wanie and Aiman chubby...hehehe....erm aku jumpe korang after New Year erk... XOXO...

Yang Dipertuan Besar Negeri Sembilan just passed away...

I just receive this news from my brother who got this news from his friend, saying that our state King, or we call "Yang Dipertuan Besar", just recently died this morning. Well I'm sure memang menyusahkan. Sure semua kerabat diraja Negeri Sembilan merungut sebab kena balik untuk all thus upacara etc. While my nenek, i don't know either dia kena balik ke tidak, sebab setahu aku, nenek aku selalu kena balik bila time pertabalan raja je. Bile time die mangkat tak taulah plak. Yang sure aku takkan balik kot Seri Menanti tu, by the time pertabalan tu pun aku dah masuk sem baru. So tak de masa aku nak nyusahkan diri lalu Bukit Putus atau lebih dikenali dengan nama Bukit maut sebab jalannye sangatlah ngeri. But honestly aku sangat terkejut dengar berita ni. Cuaca hari ni kat sini pun, mendung, hujan, just tengah hari tadi dalam kul 2 lebih camtu kot baru panas sikit. Well whatever it is...condolence to the royal family, may God bless the King soul. Amin.

World most creative building

Piano Violin Building

Serious shit lawa gile... First time aku tengok dah jatuh cinte. Lawa gile building ni. A piano violin shape building. Lawa gile sial. Kalaulah building ni kat Malaysia dah lame aku pegi amik gambo bebanyak. Tapi masalahnye building to kat China. Kat An Hui Province, China. Kawasan sekitar dia nampak macam kampung je. Whateverlah asal building tu cantek. Tu je. Ni ade several gambo building yang creative dan cantek kat dunia ni. Korang enjoy la ye.. Sure envy nye. Aku yang susah nak envey ni pun geram je tengok. Huhuhu...

The Crooked House - Poland

The Basket Building - USA

The Dancing House (Czech Republic)

Inilah antara 4 building yang aku rase paling unique kat dunia ni. Tengok jelah design die macam mane. Gile gempak sey... OMG...baru aku ingat...next week dah start sem. Mampos. Aku tak de prepare pape pon. Huhuhu... Good bye paradise...welcome back to hell...huwa.........

Women with 3 boobs?

Well i just surfing around at oddie.com, then i found this some interesting stuff. I found picture of a women with 3 boobies. Wow....that's kindda..weird...firstly i thought it was real...

Then after read the tittle....it just some rejected, most complained and banned advertising from all around the world. The picture above is from Bacardi, Canada, but was banned because as it "objectified and demeaned women" (ASC). Yeah whatever...well here i have some few interesting rejected and banned advertising. Enjoy...

Tom Ford - Most Complained - USA

Gucci - Banned - UK (Lucky guy...hehehe as if u know what i mean)

Six Feet Under TV Series - Banned - UK (It's creepy...beauty to die for? WTF?!)

Diesel - Banned - UK (Wow...that guy must be so...f*** hard...hehe)

And this last one is my fave...cute...and also...sgt...porno....(BTW, i just like it cause the bear seems so cute...erk...)

700 Days of Battle: Us vs. The Police

I just finish watch this one Japanese movie called 700 Days of Battle: Us vs. The Police. So damn funny. Lawak bodoh sangat. Serious sakit perut aku gelak. You all should watch this. It's about a group of teenagers dekat this one village declare wars dengan this one new police yang baru transfer ke sana. Macam-macam they all buat pranks semata-mata nak kenakan police tu, ada yang jadi and ada jugak yang tak jadi. Yang bestnye, police tu pun balas balik. Honestly, seriously, this movie is damn lawak...gile... Well if you wanna more about this movie, such as synopsis ke, the actor and actress ke..you can go to this site for more info. And if you wanna watch this movie, here is the link for this damn lawak movie. There had 2 part. This is the part 1 link and this is the part 2 link. Hope you all enjoy. Owe before i forgot, thanks to this one 'Mangkok' yang bernama 'Kashfi' sebab bagitau tentang movie ni. Memang sangat happening wahai mangkok!

Once

I was just surfing around. Bored. Then suddenly my mp3 player play this one song, "Falling Slowly" by Glen Hansard & Markeeta Irglova. This song won for the Best Original Song in Academy Awards 2007. This song was a soundtrack to an Irish musical film, "Once", that written and directed by John Carney. This film received the Independent Spirit Award for the Best Foreign Film in 2007.

I still remember the day that Wanie, Aiman and me, get so excited to watch this movie at UiTM Puncak Perdana campus. We arrived there extra early then everyone else. If I'm not mistakes, it was on early 3rd semester i guess, correct me if I'm wrong Wanie. It was Tuesday, after going for the talks with Michelle Hogenes at main campus, the theree of us decides to go there by our own, so that we wouldn't have to wait for our bus at section 17 campus. We take the UiTM bus from the main campus that go straight to the Puncak Perdana campus. We arrived there around 4 or 5 something i guess. Well it's extra early cause the show will starts around 8. The we're go to have an early dinner. Then after finishing the dinner, look at the clock we still have about 2 hours before the show started. We start to mumbling around looking for a place to lepak while waiting for the show, then Aiman was searching for surau, to have a prayer. Firstly, we're going to the surau, just for a prayer, then when seeing there's no one there, we're start to lepak in the surau while waiting. We're talking, laughing and sleeping. It was fun. I miss that day. Owe and I've been so jealous with Wanie, cause she brings her instrument together and she keeps get everyone attention with her instrument, while i didn't bring mine. Huhuhu. No heart feelings erk Wanie. Just joking! Well as a music student, we're proud to bring our instrument everywhere that we go, so that's the point.

Back to the story, after lepak and etc, we're get out from the surau around 8. Cause the theater room was just near by. Cause we're extra early, so we got the very front seats. That movie was really amazing. It wasn't a typical love story. All the songs are nice. But of course, my favorite, our favorite (most of the students), is the main OST, "Falling Slowly". The story is about love, of course, friendship, family etc. This story is about a Dublin busker play by Glen Hansard and a Czech immigrant, play by Markeeta Irglova. This story is about a short relationship or friendship i guess, that effects each others life. How they point their self to the right direction. It ain't ending like a typical love story. It end with each other at the win - win situation, it great, cause they ain't selfish, they think of others before making the decision. Well, honestly i did cry, but i dunno either anyone notice about it. Hehehe.... Well i heard that they might wanna shoot for ONCE 2, but I'm not so sure about it. Cause the news that i heard on tv, wasn't clear enough for me to hear it while that. Well, i hope, they will have ONCE 2, cause I'm so excited to watch it. And hope for some more better songs.

If you have a chance to download or to but the cd's you should watch it. It's a nice independent story. Well, if you try to search it on youtube, forget about it, cause I've already search it no one shares it. Only the OST clips are there. Well you should listen to this 3 best OST, "Falling Slowly", "If You Want Me" and "Lies". It was so nice. Well here is the clip for the main OST and my favorite song ever, "Falling Slowly" by Glen Hansard and Markeeta Irglova.

P/S:Love the movie quote. "How often do you find the right person? 'ONCE'" It's very nice

What else?

What else should i do to please your heart? You told me that we should have some understanding, but now, where all thus understanding have gone? Quite, silent, no sound, no reaction. All that reveals is some unknown motif war! I just can't understand the men's! First, they were Angles, then they were Evils! Sometimes i just lost my faith, to count on them. To depend on them. First they tell that they love you, then they will rip it all your heart away! I have been hurt for so many times, but why am i have to be hurt for one more time? I don't wanna get hurt for the rest of my life. I rather die or not to fall in love again! But it just so hard to resist it. I am so soft-hearted. I'm easy and quickly to forgive someone, or to accept something new. Did i deserve this? Maybe? Perhaps? Is it some punishment for me to hurt someone in my past? Well yeah i admit that i have done something wrong, i hurt someone. But it's just the one time. I quickly get out of his life. I don't wanna trouble his life anymore. Maybe it's a punishment to me i guess. I hope that i am strong enough to through this. It is true what Tio (some friends) said, during 3 month on the early relationship are the honeymoon time. The 4 month is where all the drama begins. Yes and it's true. Seems like the history repeating again. Please tell me what's wrong with you? Is there had something wrong with me? What else should i do to make you happy? What else should i do to see you smile? Please tell me! Seems like you're the one who break the rules of understanding! What else should i do? Please tell me!

BERHENTI BERHARAP by Shiela On 7


Aku tak percaya lagi
Dengan apa yang kau beri
Aku terdampar disini
Tersudut menunggu mati
Aku tak percaya lagi
Akan guna matahari
Yang dulu mampu terangi
Sudut gelap hati ini

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat
Kenapa ada derita
Bila bahagia tercipta
Kenapa ada sang hitam
Bila putih menyenangkan
Haa...

Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Ku terima kekalahanku
Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Ku salutkan kemenanganmu
Woo...

Kau ajarkan aku bahagia
Kau ajarkan aku derita
Kau tunjukan aku bahagia
Kau tunjukan aku derita
Kau berikan aku bahagia
Kau berikan aku derita

Haa...
Haa...

Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Ku terima kekalahanku
Rebahkan tangguhmu
Lepaskan perlahan
Kau akan mengerti
Semua...

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat

Guess what...?

Well, i just came back from Shah Alam, seeing my bf. My dad pick me up then bring me to some resturant, cause both of us haven't eat yet. When we arrived, my dad friends already there. They wanna discuss about their band stuff. Then i dunno who, suddenly someone brought up the topic about celebrity stuff. One of them said that he use to have Jamal Abdilah draft for one of his hit song. I don't remember the title of the song. He said, he met Jamal when he was in prison or sumthin. Cause he was an ex-police. But then too bad that he lost the draft. Then my dad said Ah Chong (my dad friends) have P.Ramlee's IC. But it's just the photocopy la. Then of course i merengek wanna look at it, and he (Ah Chong) show me...and now i have a copy of it too but it just in the picture. Hehehe...

P.Ramlee's IC (Front)

P.Ramlee's IC (Back)

Owe before i forget i also recieved some sad news, P.Ramlee's son, Nasir Ramlee, passed away a few days ago. On Thursday i think. Condolence to his family.

Jealous...cemburu?

Am i jealous? Am i kidding? Am crying? Crying inside? I'm confuse. Suddenly confuse with all the decision that i have made. I am crying inside. I miss someone from the past. And i'm gonna be dead if Naz read this. Hope that he won't. Why la suddenly jiwa kacau. Cemburu i guess.... Whatever...la... Just let it be. Let him with his own way, and me in my own way. Yang penting we're still friends. Itu saja.

Malaysian Youth Lifestyle Festival

Have you heard of youthsays.com? It's a Malaysian Youth Opinion Community. Well on this early January, on 9 until 11 January, 2009, there had a Malaysian Youth Lifestyle Festival. There's so many activities there to join, such as battle of the band, Malaysian Youth Entrepreneur Convention, Street Dance Challenge, Futsal, Jazzercise Challenge, Expression Photography Challenge, Celebs Session, Foosball Tournament, Basketball challenge and lots more. This events will held at PWTC, on 9 until 11 January 2009. From 10.30 am to 9.30 pm. Can't wait to join the crowd. Especially to watch the Battle of the Band challenge. Owe, and to my faculty student, it's one of the events that you guys can join to get one of your forum activity. Hehehe... Owe i've already claim the pass for this events, hope you guys will do the same if you wanna join this events.

Damn Laptop!

Damn laptop! Argh...i'm so pissed off right now, with this damn lappy! Suddenly aja semalam dia tiba-tiba buat hal, sound hilang. I dunno how come! Puas aku check kenapa, but hampeh! I hate this lappy. Lately ni banyak sangat buat hal! Windows lah, cd player die lah, battery lah, now the sound pulak! Macam B**i!Damn! Aku baru guna setahun lebih. Setahun sebulan baru, tapi dah buat hal. Damn. Then baru la pulak aku dengar dari member aku cakap Acer memang banyak buat hal. Damn sucks! Bila aku dah beli baru la ade yang cakap camtu. Waktu before beli, aku dah tanye ramai and ramai plak tu yang suggest Acer, macam hampeh! Sucks! Sucks! Hey, i can't live without my music...! Huwa...getting insane. But thank God, still ada my cell. Boleh la lagi dengar lagu. And thank God i'm still at home. So kalau nak tengok youtube or etc, boleh bukak pc rumah. Tapi kena rebut dengan papa and along la.. Huwa... Damn laptop!

OST "Virgin"

It's a nice song. OST from movie, "Virgin" (Perawan), an Indonesian movie. Well i can't find any other better video clip, only this one, the clip quality kindda sucks, but hope you enjoy the song. Tittle "Aku Perawan" (I'm Virgin) by Ika Putri.

Aku Perawan - OST VIRGIN

Kawan kita bergandengan
Namun kita tak sejalan
Kawan kita berlarian
Namun tak satu tujuan

reff :
Woo..oo.oo aku perawan
Woo..oo.oo ku tak sejaman
Woo..oo.oo aku perawan
Woo..oo.oo..

Apa aku membosankan
Karena tak sealiran
Apa aku tak tau aturan
Karena tak ikut-ikutan

Back to reff

Chorus :

Biar aja orang bilang aku ketinggalan...
Kesucian bagiku penting untuk di pertahankan
Dan akuu yakin tuhan pun berikan aku tempat yang
Terindah...

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Thank You

I just got my exam result for my 3rd semester, and i pass. Yahoo... Well there had a few subjects that I'm not really confident with it. Most of the subjects are my final seats and i passed. Especially, my Aural Skills subject or in the other name Ear Training. That's the most hardest subject ever. Thank you Allah, and also thanks to all the one that support me, my family, friends and also my bf who always be there for me when i 'merengek' or in trouble. Actually after i had finished my final exam for this semester, i don't really feel comfortable with my situation, cause i had a few subjects that on the final seating. I've already loose my faith at the end of the 3rd semester, but thank God i pass it all.

How to convert a t-shirt into a dress

Well i just surfing and watch some "How to..." clip on youtube, then i found this interesting clip, how to convert a big size t-shirt into a sexy dress. It's kindda nice, quick and simple. I may wanna do it one for myself, cause it's kindda nice and simple. Enjoy the clip.

Money!

Why there still had some people who owe us a money, and didn't know how to re-pay us back? I am so freakin mad right now. Dah la bila nak pinjam sanggup datang rumah tengah-tengah malam lagi, janji dalam 2 or 3 month, right now already one year! F**K! Then when we ask for the money back, banyak kali tangguh time payment. Hello...masa kau nak pinjam, datang tengah-tengah malam senang je dapat, then now bila nak bayar, liat gila. Dasar penipu. Patutlah bini kau tak cayekan kau! Kau memang macam B**I! Kalau dengan Along ni, sure dah mati anak bini kau kena bunuh. Damn, if by tomorrow kau tak bayar jugak, memang aku pegi menyalak kat anak-anak kau. Bukannye siket wei, 3,000 RM. Macam palat lau kau ni. Janji macam taik kucing. Memang macam la****t!

Another sad story...

Another sad story from yesterday, condolence to Mohd Khairul Ridzuan and family for the lost of their beloved mother. It makes me receive 2 sad new on one day.

Then when i text a friend of mine, from UPSI, and share some another sad story, his student passed away due to falling from level 17 from the condo that she's live in. From what my friend said, the little girl wanna run away from home cause the police found a laptop, towel toothbrush etc in her bag. And one more thing the he heard from his friend, her mom was abusive and that cause the girl for wanna running away from home.


Well condolence to the girl family and that makes me receive 3 sad news in one day. Owe yeah, i was reading a novel when i receive the new about Ridzuan mom, then after that when i continue reading the novel, the next page was the part when their cat dies. Damn, why should i receive all this bad and sad news in one day? Gosh... Well condolence once again to all of the family for the lost of their loves one... Al-Fatihah

Al-Fatihah and condolence to Gg's family

When i woke up this morning, i was shocked by some sad news. My cousin passed away this morning, around 5.30 am. And i guess that explain why i can't sleep this morning until around 6 am i guess. Well, sorry i can't go to visit their family, Gg's family, we're sorry cause we couldn't make it. Well condolence's to his family. Well we're not really close to Gg's family, but from what i heard, my aunt said, Gg was sick before, I'm not so cause what illness. The truth is, Gg is a special person, he's retard and can't survive on his own. From what that i know, since i was a kid, all Gg's eat only a banana's and he's so skinny. Maybe Allah loves him the most and he know that Gg cant survive on his own if his father passed away. May Allah bless Gg's soul. And now Gg follow his mom going back to our creator, Allah. May Allah bless you my cousin. Amin.

Wah...Suami muda

Well seperti biasa la aku surfing some stuff, then terjumpa pulak satu blog ni, and one of the artical sangat menarik perhatian. Title post tu Rahsia Wook jaga suami lebih muda. Korang boleh clik kat title tu kalau nak view. Wah aku memang amazed sesangat. Perempuan ni dah tua, umur 106 tahun, so boleh aku panggil nenek la dan yang paling bestnye ni umur suami dia, 37 tahun. Cuba bayangkan 69 tahun lagi tua dari suami die. Wa...salute aku sama nenek tu. Owe lupe pulak, nama nenek tu Wook Kundur and suami die pulak Mohd. Nor Musa. Suami dia ni, adalah suami yang ke 22. Wow, sangatlah hebat. Anak pulak ada lebih dari 20 dan cucu lagi la tak terkira. Well dalam artical tu die cerita la macam mana dia jaga suami muda die tu. Sentiasa jaga makan, pakaian etc. Yang bestnye, still boleh melayan tempat tidur lagi tu. Macam manelah agaknye erk. Tak dapat ku bayangkan. Tapi apa yang boleh aku kate, nenek ni sangat hebat. Yang kat atas tu gambar nenek tu dengan suami die, aik, macam suami die segan je nak pegang die. Hehehe... Btw, atas dasar apa agaknye ye suami die tu kawin dengan die? Cinta ke? Any comment?

Lupe pulak...

Aku dah ngok-ngek pasal bencana-bencana alam, lupa pulak nak wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha pada semua. Enjoy your raya.

Oh dear...

Oh dear, peristiwa hitam berulang lagi. Except this time tidak melibatkan terlalu ramai orang. Tanah runtuh di Bukit Antarabangsa lagi. According to the newspaper that i read, tak ingat la newspaper mane, either utasan, star or etc..., tanah runtuh di bukit Antarabangsa tu mula terjadi sejak 1985 lagi. Tapi among all kes tanah runtuh yang terjadi, kes highland towers yang paling teruk, kalau tak salah dalam 1995 kan? Waktu tu aku baru 6 tahun. Well, aku ikut perkembangan tu except that i'm still a kid and tatau nak buat apa just dengar je la berita. Memang sedih, pilu, menyayat hati, tapi aku rasa kes tsunami lagi pilu kot?! Lagi ramai yang terbunuh.

Korang perasan tak, all this bala happen bila tiba bulan 12? Dan satu lagi, kalau korang perasan, ada 3 recent kejadian bencana alam yang terjadi pada tarikh 26 December ni, which is earthquake di Iran pada tahun 2003 yang menyebabkan lebih kurang 10,000 orang maut, the next year nye pulak, tsunami yang menggemparkan satu dunia, pada tahun 2004, dimana lebih kurang 230,000 orang maut. Kita di Malaysia pun turut terkena tapi korban di sini tidak setinggi di Indonesia. Yang paling menyayat hati bila sorang bapa hilang ke semua ahli keluarga ke atau anaknya saja, tah la, aku pun ingat-ingat lupa. Yang tu happen kalau tak silap dekat Penang. Kesian betul. Aku pun menangis bila dengar cerita tu. Dan yang paling terbaru sekali earthquake kat Taiwan, tapi sebab kat sana diorang dah prepare, so ade warning earthquake ape semua, jadi just 2 orang yang tak bernasib baik je la yang mati sebab benca tu. Semua disaster yang aku nyatakan ni terjadi dalam bulan yang sama dan takih yang sama.

Korang tak pelik ke? Kenapa bulan 12 yang selalu terjadi semua ni? Highland tower tu bulan 12, tsunami bulan 12, earthquake kat Taiwan and Iran tu pun bulan 12. Well ada sesetengah pihak mengatakan, mungkin pembalasan yang diberikan pada manusia-manusia yang tak sedar diri lagi. According tu info yang aku dapat, ada yang cakap masa malam christmas, ramai orang dekat Acheh yang celebrate christmas, sampai tak ingat dunia. Then the next day...bum tsunami. Mungkin pembalasan dan juga amaran kepada siapa yang tak sedar diri lagi kot.

Macam kat Bukit Antarabangsa tu, tu kan tempat elit, well tempat maksiat pun iya tu. Iya la, ramai yang permpuan simpanan la, honey boy la, semua disumbat kesitu. Mane taknye petaka selalu terjadi kat sana. Well aku ade jugak member yang duduk sana dan dia sangatlah player. Bertukar gf, tu tak pe lagi, main tu dah semestinya, dan last sekali yang aku dengar tentang dia, dia sibuk cari ubat turun darah sebab ada yang dah melekat la tu. Nasib la aku tak pernah tersangkut dengan dia. Kalau tak naiya je.

Well back to the story, sekarang ni, apa yang aku dengar dah 8 orang mati dalam runtuhan yang baru-baru ni berlaku kat bukit antarabangsa. Kesian memang la kesian. Tapi pemaju still jalankan jugak projek buat rumah baru. Tarah sana sini keliling bukit. Mane taknye terjadi pekara macam ni. Suggestion aku, hentikan je la semua projek pembinaan kat situ. Dah cukup dah. Bangunkanlah pulak tempat lain. Tempat yang lebih selamat.

Klip Tanah Runtuh kat Bukit Antarabangsa

Wa...the vocalist masuk TV!

Wah...i suddenly scream and scared both of my cat who running away as fast as they could. Well i'm amazed. I didnt get a chance to watch the semi-final for Juara Lagu 2008 which i was so badly wanna watch it. Then just a minute ago i decided to watch some of the song in youtube, my bro said the back up vocal was so gempak, and i was ok and eager to know who the hell is it, and when i watch wah...it's all of my friends and seniors... Wah...all the top vocal student ma... Isa, Kak Amal, Kak Dayang and Kak Rabiatul and also one of the degree bro. I don't remember his name. But i do know him. He was Isa close friends. And i was like so tak aci cause all this vocal student easily can get popular by being a back up vocal. While us the classical guitar student, struggle to get a good place... Wa...so hard. The classical song was so damn susah. I wish i'll take vocal before then guitar. Well on my time before, there's a lot of vocal and guitar student were accepted, then they have to re-audition back, but i still got guitar majoring cause there's only 2 girls who play the guitar in our faculty on that time. So accept je la the destiny. Huhuhu... Btw, congrats to all of them, pandai korang cari peluang ye.... Hehehehe. Hey let me know if there had any performance who wanna use the clasical guitar player, nak join the crowd jugak! Hehehe

Cinta Terhalang by Bob on Semi-final Juara Lagu 2008

Al-Fatihah

I was just surfing around looking for another blogging center, then suddenly my eyes stopped at this one girl blog, My Juice, by Erina Zahara. Her blog was nice, and the colour captured my eyes. A bright orange and brown. When i was scanning some of her post, my eyes stopped at this one post tittle Al-Fatihah. In that post she was talking about a friend that she didn't have a chance to know her closer, and that girl passed away on that day, October 19, 2008.

Her name was Maisara or she called her Sara Aziz. Then she give a link to Sara blog, i was eager to find out about this girl, why they said that she was so special etc. When i reach her blog, i read some of her last articles before she's gone. I cried. She was special. Such a brave young women. She died at the age of 20. Still young. She died because of cancer. I'm not so sure what type of cancer it is, cause i give up loading her page, it was damn slow, I'm not so sure either is it because of my Internet connection or her page was too heavy. But i got to see a glance of her picture. She's pretty and sweet. Beautiful with or without her make-up. Her last post was about her doctor persuades her to give a chance to chemotherapy. But she still resist it. Chemo is painful, i know it. My late mum also passed away cause of cancer. She first discover that she have a cancer when i was in form 1, it's kindda hard for me cause I'm still young too settle down all thus things at home.

First she was diagnosis for having a breast cancer, well as an advice from the doctor, she did an operation to get rid of the cancer stuff. Well it successful. She takes almost a year to recover from the operation. After almost 4 years from the operation, one day when i got home from school, my dad said that she was in hospital, she fell in the bathroom and she had a problem with her lung, she's hard to breathe. I was speechless. All i do is, change my clothes and quickly asked him to send me to mum. I was in form five and I'll be sitting for my final exam in a few month from that. When i arrived at the hospital, she said the doctor already pump out the water from her lung. But she still seems so hard to breathe. She stayed at the hospital alone that night. The next day i came to the hospital after school, i got up first and my dad going to parked the car. When i arrived there, there had this Indian doctor, she was checking her reports the she was saying something to her. But all i remember is, when she persuades her to go for a chemotherapy back, and her cancer is getting worst. I look at her and she speechless and have nothing to explain it to me. I quickly ran out and call for my ex bf to release all those things that haunting and bothering my mind. He calm me down as usual and then i go back inside, looking at my dad and mum, they said that the test from the water that they pump out from her lung yesterday, have a cancer cell. They diagnosis her as stage 4 and I'm not so sure either it's negative or positive, cause on previous, she was diagnosis as in stage 2 negative as the cancer cell was not active. Doctor predict that she only have about 3 month to live. She resist to accept any chemo anymore, she said it was painful, and i know it. I see her suffer before. And i suffer too looking at her like that. She was diagnosis on March 2006 and she passed away on July 2006. On a Sunday morning, in her sleep.

Gosh....i miss her and I've get too far from my first story, about Sara Aziz. Condolence to Sara's family. Even i don't even know her at all, but her story tear me up. Well she reminds me to my mum. A lot. Both of the suffer from cancer and passed away. I haven't taste a real home cook meal since my mum gone. She is a good chef, well she was a chef at 5 star hotel before, but she resigned since she been diagnosis for having a cancer on 2002. Gosh i miss you mama......i miss you so much. Before i forget, this is Sara Aziz blog, if you wanna know more about her.

Al-Fatihah to my mum, Noridah bt. Mohd Noor

and also

Al-Fatihah to Sara Aziz

May Allah bless both you in your past and after life.

I love you mama.

This song reminds me to my mum. I miss you mama...

Happy Birthday Syah...

Happy Birthday to my beloved best friend, Aisyah@Syah@Mok....hehehe Well you're 19 now.... Wish you were here so that we can celebrate it together but too bad that you're on practical right now. But perhaps we can see each other on Aid Adha......See you pall....... Owe and enjoy your country scenery there at Melaka.....erm is it country? Erm whatever....hehehe Well this is just a new begging Syah, you can't stay practical around Negeri Sembilan forever... Hehehe.. cheers...

I miss this moment...after high school at the cyber cafe where i work as a part time worker.

U.O.X Play is back!

UOX play is back. Well as i told you all before that i went for an audition at capsquare for uox play and now it's back for the grand final uox of the year. Well i hope there will be more promotion about this. Well i know the promo has been made in newspaper and web but perhaps on tv or magazine etc. The events that i went before at capsquare was superb. Honestly it's the kind of events that i ever wanted to join. It's all for teenagers no parents or kids that we can bump into there. It's really nice. But maybe because the capsquare location was too new for all of us and it's hard to find it. We take almost 2 hours to get there. It was so much fun. The audition, the performance, the bazaar, the camera women, the breakdance, the art stuff but too bad for the crowd. I guess maybe they couldn't find their way to get there. But perhaps this coming Play will be supernova. Cause it will held on sungei wang rooftop. There must be crazy up there. Well the most important thing is, purple, don't change the purple colour, cause it was the identity for celcom and also my fave colour...hehehe. Well i guess this is for now about the UOX Play owe and don't forget to vote for this superb talented person...hehehe...

Because I'm A Girl

A video clip that keeps me crying every time i watch it. The original version is in Korean, by Kiss, a Korean girl group, but this is the English version of this song by Jini, one of the Kiss members. This song also sing in several languages, but all i have in collection right now is only 3 version, Korean, English and Tagalog. But here i choose the English version cause it's easier to understand the lyric then the original one or others. Hope you enjoy.

Because I'm A Girl - KISS

I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

(REFRAIN):
You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

(CHORUS):
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

(REFRAIN)

(CHORUS)

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me

Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

(CHORUS) [2x]

Seem so wrong...

Everything use to be going quite well in my life. Now everything seems so wrong. So wrong. Ain't going the right. Everything seems falling apart. a lots of unexpected and unwanted things happen and i don't know how to handle it. Should i start it back again? Or should i just through the agony of pain? It's all in one. Only my heart knows what am i suffering to. With the family, with the studies, with the lover, and while I'm down right now, no friends came to help or at least to be some who i can turn to except for my best friends, Syah. But she can't always be there. She got her own things to do. Plus she's on her 2nd semester practical now as a nursing student. Sometimes like i wanna get rid of myself, but i know it's a big crime. I guess I'm lost my way right now, and i don't know to who i can turn to. I can't put all the burden on papa, he had suffer enough especially since mama passed away 2 years ago. Emotion suffering, that's what I've been through right now. Before this i use to turn to my bf, but i know he got he's own problem to settle things down. And i can't always depending on him. I have to learn how to survive too. But it just i don't know how to do it. I really loose my way. Can't turn to papa cause he had suffer enough about this family and also his siblings and mama's family too. It's kindda complicated, but that's what happen. My brother? He got he's own prob and i don't even wanna discover about it cause i had enough things that running into my mind right now. I know he's suffer too but he just didn't show it. Syah, she's on practical. My bf? He with he's own problem and i know he had suffer enough too and i don't wanna bother him with my problem. Wanna let him stabilize himself first then i trouble him with my problem. Argh...i feel like I'm going insane right now. I just hope that there can be miracle for me to handle all this. So hoping for a miracle.