Hurts & Relief

I feel it hurts, i feel so scared
Without any words, I'm unprepared
The memory suddenly hunts me, in the middle of the night
The history had wounded me, when I'm turn off the light

I can feel the pain lingers, surrounded my fear
I suddenly hear the whispers, which haunt me for years
The tears broken, I'm out of air to breathe
The feeling was unspoken, it left me without peace

Unexpected visitor, has knocking the door
With an amazing character, i suddenly adore
I'm back to reality, by the kisses on my cheek
I'm back from the fantasy, that had gone and makes me weak

Amazingly i knew him, from the first moment i saw
Gratefully I'm in love with him, that he had made peace no war
I'm glad that he came, getting me out from this agony game
The love burning like eternal flame, that known for it's fame

5.28 AM

November 29, 2009

P/S: Inspired by New Moon

Twilight Saga 'New Moon'

Yeah......i watch New Moon. :) Well, i guess New Moon is nice. The movie was almost exactly like in the book, only several changes for making it more dramatic i guess. Owe yeah, i went for the midnight movie, i went with my bro and my cousin bro, Akim or i usually call him adik. Cause he was 2 years younger then me. It's been almost 3 years i guess, i haven't seen him. He's taller from the last i saw him, as far as i remember. I miss my cousin moment. Too bad that my cousin sister(Kak Ita) can't follow us, cause she's having a terrible flu. I miss her too.

Akim (Adik) & Me at the MBO, Seremban

Back to the New Moon, i read the book, i read Kak Olive book. But it took me awhile to read it and i often left it... So, I'm not really remember how was the ending. Owe and about the Volturi parts, i expect more dramatic but it's kindda disappointed a lil bit. Erm whatever... Owe and my brother keep complaining the part that Jacob wanted to tell Bella that he's a werewolf, he said, he can cut it and make it shorter... oh whatever.

Owe, people may usually feel hurts when the part that Edward left Bella, but to me, I feel hurts when the part he told her that he was lying about the leave (after Bella chasing him at Voltera if I'm not mistakes), i feel so hurts at that part. When i read the book, i cried, same as when i watch it in the movie. I feel like I've been through that moment before.

Owe and i suddenly miss him...

How to know if you're a Twi-hard

Well i just checking my email, then after i sign out from the mailbox, i saw this one article by Lydia Kwan, How to know if you're a Twi-hard. Well of course I'm a Twilight fan. I read all the books well...not all..technically it's the pdf that i download from the Internet. Well i admit that some of the statement are acceptable....but some of it...make me laugh.. I couldn't imagine how imaginative this people are. Seems like Steph Meyers had totally making all those Twilight fans in fantasy. A real fantasy.... Well below this is the exactly article that i copy from the MSN page. Except for the bold comment one... it's from my opinion...

Caught the Twilight fever and feel like you’re losing grip on reality? 12 fanatic Malaysian Twi-hards confess how far they’ve gone with their fandom. Go through our checklist to find out if you’ve gone from neutral to a die-hard Twilight fan!

1. You’ve read all the books Fan confession: “I’ve read all four books over and over again. Sometimes I peep over strangers’ shoulders to see which scene it is, and think about it all over in my head.”

Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn – if you’ve gone all the way to Jacob imprinting on Renesmee and can still remember the dish Bella ordered in the Italian restaurant in the first book, you’ve got this checked.

Comment: Yup...mushroom ravioli :)

2. You firmly believe that vampires exist, and they sparkleFan confession: “Of course they can walk out in the sun… They don’t get scorched, they have marble skin.”

If you believe in Stephenie Meyer’s version of the blood-thirsty predator – a sparkling statue with no fangs – you’ve got this checked too. Chances are, ‘em vamps would be more afraid of screaming girls instead.

Comment: Yup...they would be more afraid of those screaming girls fan... and hello that type of vamp who can walk out in the sun with the marble skin do not exist...da... wake up!

3. You believe that the whole saga is truly going on, somewhere out there Fan confession: “I really thought that Edward and Bella truly existed… or at least good vampires all around the world."

By following Bella’s love journey, one can easily believe this fantasy world Meyer has created for her readers. Question is, are YOU losing grip on reality and dwelling in this world of make-believe?

Comment: Yeah...steph meyers making it sound more real with the Quillete legends. Well i have read in this one web but i don't remember which website...saying about the Quillete ancestors who was a shape-shifter, a wolf.

4. You expect to see Edward in your room at nightFan confession: “Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and look at the corner of my room, hoping he’ll be watching me sleep.”

A big part of the saga narrates Edward’s presence in Bella’s room – from watching her sleep to getting a little physical. He is always stationed on a chair or by the corner of her room, so you know you’ve got this checked if you wake up expecting his golden eyes stare you down.

Comment: Well it's the dream of every girl fans, i guess... but it's rubbish.

5. You want to go to Forks… or Cameron Highlands at leastFan confession: “I wanted to go to Forks to find Edward, but ended up going to Cameron Highlands to read the books again. It felt so great to be in a similar environment... It’s the closest I can get to him.”

Forks… the quiet town turned tourist spot. It’s cold, wet, gloomy and full of greenery. If you’ve got the idea of going there to look for Edward, you’re slowly inching towards obsession.

Comment: Going to Forks to find Edward? Another rubbish i guess....lawak

6. You’ve read Midnight SunFan confession: “I hate whoever who leaked Midnight Sun and caused Meyer to stop writing it... But I’ve read it.”

Midnight Sun is another book by Stephenie Meyer which tells Edward’s side of the story. It was leaked before Meyer was done writing the book, discouraging the authoress as she felt that she was closely watched. She has since published the written 12 chapters online, leaving readers to crave more. If you know of Midnight Sun and have downloaded a copy yourself, you’re definitely a Twi-hard fan.

Comment: Have no idea about the leaked stuff.......but i did have a copy of midnight sun :)

7. You avoid the sunFan confession: “I want to keep my skin as white as possible. I want to look like a vampire and the burning sun is just spoiling my plan.”

While some want to keep a pale complexion to look like vamps (seriously, it happens), some try to follow the lives of the Cullens by staying away from the sun – just in case they sparkle.

Comment: For God sake, it's Malaysia, and it's summer almost through the entire year. Come back to reality babe!

8. You compare your love interest to EdwardFan confession: “It’s a good thing that my boyfriend can’t read my mind. He’d leave me if he knew how much I thought he lacked from Edward.”

Almost every Twi-hard fan has ended up comparing their boyfriends/husbands with Edward Cullen. This is possibly the main reason why guys hate Twilight to no end. Edward depicts the absolute perfect man – strong, powerful, chivalrous and sincerely in love – someone quite impossible to find, yet Twi-hard fans scour the world for him.

Comment: Never compare...cause Naz still the one...except that, Robert are cutter then him...hehehe sorry Yang.

9. Your heart beats faster when you see a silver VolvoFan confession: “Every time I see a silver Volvo, I drive up to it to see if Edward is driving it..”

Edward drives a silver hatchback Volvo in the series, and quotes such as “Nothing like the purr of a Volvo” and “Stupid silver Volvo driver” has been used in the books. If you’ve caught yourself in the act of squealing and running over to see if Edward’s the driver, you’ve got this checked real good.

Comment: Never had crossed my mind!

10. You think of being a vampireFan confession: “I daydream of being just like the Cullens. I love everything about them.”

Vampires are known for their flawless perfection, incredible strength and increased senses amongst others. They’re also famous for being the ultimate baddies in the whole mythical world, as Edward calls it “the world’s most dangerous predator”. Got the hots for a vamp bite, Twilighter?

Comment: Not even once! And hello...never gonna happen in this real world... da... pelik aku..dengan all those fans confession..!

11. You enjoy rainy days the mostFan confession: “It reminds me of rainy Forks. I can also wear my Bella jacket out in warm Kuala Lumpur.”

Forks, as said by Edward, is the wettest place in continental America. In tropical (and mostly scorching) Malaysia, you know you’ve got this checked if you only want the rain for Forks’ environment. Rain for sawah padi? What sawah padi?

Comment: I don't like rain...! Tapi suka mendung... :)

12. You’ve contemplated stealing the life-size cut-out Fan confession: “I stole the cut-out from a cinema in Petaling Jaya. Edward’s in my room now and I kiss him everyday.”

If you find yourself entertaining the idea of stealing these Twilight promos and merchandises, you need to know that (1) it’s illegal, and (2) you’re obsessed with Twilight.

Comment: Yang ni seriously obsess giler....and psycho pun ade jugak... hehe seram..

Return

It's been a while since my last post. I'm not really in mood to write stuff. Well i watch 2012 last week. Menarik... And cry juga la. Tetiba touching... Bila tiba-tiba terbayangkan kita in that situation. Menunggu ajal. Sedih. I miss shah alam. I really am. Rasa bosan di rumah. Rasa macam tak da life. Whatever....

Owe...tak sabar nak tunggu 'New Moon'.... Benci! Kat US hari Jumaat lepas dah keluar. Kat sini 26 nov ni baru keluar. Benci! Damn...i dunno why, but suddenly...lately ni, i'm so so and so in love with Robert Thomas Pattison. The one who play Edward Cullen dalam Twilight tu... Gosh.... Dah lama aku tak rasa gilakan seseorg artis sampai camni. He's such a damn hottie.

Dah lama rasanya tak tulis poems... I want to write...tapi tak de idea dan tak de mood. I miss Naz.... I hope i can write something for him. Something special...

Owe and just chat with Zaki... He's sounds so regret for letting me go... But it serves him well i guess.... After all thus years that he had done to me...erm...whatever la...

I'm just blur rite now....feels so empty... Aku tak tau ape yg boleh buat aku happy sekarang... Rasa macam something misssing....

Erm....it's almost 4 am now.... Going to sleep....Gud nite