When i woke up this morning, i was shocked by some sad news. My cousin passed away this morning, around 5.30 am. And i guess that explain why i can't sleep this morning until around 6 am i guess. Well, sorry i can't go to visit their family, Gg's family, we're sorry cause we couldn't make it. Well condolence's to his family. Well we're not really close to Gg's family, but from what i heard, my aunt said, Gg was sick before, I'm not so cause what illness. The truth is, Gg is a special person, he's retard and can't survive on his own. From what that i know, since i was a kid, all Gg's eat only a banana's and he's so skinny. Maybe Allah loves him the most and he know that Gg cant survive on his own if his father passed away. May Allah bless Gg's soul. And now Gg follow his mom going back to our creator, Allah. May Allah bless you my cousin. Amin.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
Wah...Suami muda
Well seperti biasa la aku surfing some stuff, then terjumpa pulak satu blog ni, and one of the artical sangat menarik perhatian. Title post tu Rahsia Wook jaga suami lebih muda. Korang boleh clik kat title tu kalau nak view. Wah aku memang amazed sesangat. Perempuan ni dah tua, umur 106 tahun, so boleh aku panggil nenek la dan yang paling bestnye ni umur suami dia, 37 tahun. Cuba bayangkan 69 tahun lagi tua dari suami die. Wa...salute aku sama nenek tu. Owe lupe pulak, nama nenek tu Wook Kundur and suami die pulak Mohd. Nor Musa. Suami dia ni, adalah suami yang ke 22. Wow, sangatlah hebat. Anak pulak ada lebih dari 20 dan cucu lagi la tak terkira. Well dalam artical tu die cerita la macam mana dia jaga suami muda die tu. Sentiasa jaga makan, pakaian etc. Yang bestnye, still boleh melayan tempat tidur lagi tu. Macam manelah agaknye erk. Tak dapat ku bayangkan. Tapi apa yang boleh aku kate, nenek ni sangat hebat. Yang kat atas tu gambar nenek tu dengan suami die, aik, macam suami die segan je nak pegang die. Hehehe... Btw, atas dasar apa agaknye ye suami die tu kawin dengan die? Cinta ke? Any comment? Lupe pulak...
Aku dah ngok-ngek pasal bencana-bencana alam, lupa pulak nak wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha pada semua. Enjoy your raya.
Oh dear...
Oh dear, peristiwa hitam berulang lagi. Except this time tidak melibatkan terlalu ramai orang. Tanah runtuh di Bukit Antarabangsa lagi. According to the newspaper that i read, tak ingat la newspaper mane, either utasan, star or etc..., tanah runtuh di bukit Antarabangsa tu mula terjadi sejak 1985 lagi. Tapi among all kes tanah runtuh yang terjadi, kes highland towers yang paling teruk, kalau tak salah dalam 1995 kan? Waktu tu aku baru 6 tahun. Well, aku ikut perkembangan tu except that i'm still a kid and tatau nak buat apa just dengar je la berita. Memang sedih, pilu, menyayat hati, tapi aku rasa kes tsunami lagi pilu kot?! Lagi ramai yang terbunuh.
Korang perasan tak, all this bala happen bila tiba bulan 12? Dan satu lagi, kalau korang perasan, ada 3 recent kejadian bencana alam yang terjadi pada tarikh 26 December ni, which is earthquake di Iran pada tahun 2003 yang menyebabkan lebih kurang 10,000 orang maut, the next year nye pulak, tsunami yang menggemparkan satu dunia, pada tahun 2004, dimana lebih kurang 230,000 orang maut. Kita di Malaysia pun turut terkena tapi korban di sini tidak setinggi di Indonesia. Yang paling menyayat hati bila sorang bapa hilang ke semua ahli keluarga ke atau anaknya saja, tah la, aku pun ingat-ingat lupa. Yang tu happen kalau tak silap dekat Penang. Kesian betul. Aku pun menangis bila dengar cerita tu. Dan yang paling terbaru sekali earthquake kat Taiwan, tapi sebab kat sana diorang dah prepare, so ade warning earthquake ape semua, jadi just 2 orang yang tak bernasib baik je la yang mati sebab benca tu. Semua disaster yang aku nyatakan ni terjadi dalam bulan yang sama dan takih yang sama.
Korang tak pelik ke? Kenapa bulan 12 yang selalu terjadi semua ni? Highland tower tu bulan 12, tsunami bulan 12, earthquake kat Taiwan and Iran tu pun bulan 12. Well ada sesetengah pihak mengatakan, mungkin pembalasan yang diberikan pada manusia-manusia yang tak sedar diri lagi. According tu info yang aku dapat, ada yang cakap masa malam christmas, ramai orang dekat Acheh yang celebrate christmas, sampai tak ingat dunia. Then the next day...bum tsunami. Mungkin pembalasan dan juga amaran kepada siapa yang tak sedar diri lagi kot.
Macam kat Bukit Antarabangsa tu, tu kan tempat elit, well tempat maksiat pun iya tu. Iya la, ramai yang permpuan simpanan la, honey boy la, semua disumbat kesitu. Mane taknye petaka selalu terjadi kat sana. Well aku ade jugak member yang duduk sana dan dia sangatlah player. Bertukar gf, tu tak pe lagi, main tu dah semestinya, dan last sekali yang aku dengar tentang dia, dia sibuk cari ubat turun darah sebab ada yang dah melekat la tu. Nasib la aku tak pernah tersangkut dengan dia. Kalau tak naiya je.
Well back to the story, sekarang ni, apa yang aku dengar dah 8 orang mati dalam runtuhan yang baru-baru ni berlaku kat bukit antarabangsa. Kesian memang la kesian. Tapi pemaju still jalankan jugak projek buat rumah baru. Tarah sana sini keliling bukit. Mane taknye terjadi pekara macam ni. Suggestion aku, hentikan je la semua projek pembinaan kat situ. Dah cukup dah. Bangunkanlah pulak tempat lain. Tempat yang lebih selamat.
Korang perasan tak, all this bala happen bila tiba bulan 12? Dan satu lagi, kalau korang perasan, ada 3 recent kejadian bencana alam yang terjadi pada tarikh 26 December ni, which is earthquake di Iran pada tahun 2003 yang menyebabkan lebih kurang 10,000 orang maut, the next year nye pulak, tsunami yang menggemparkan satu dunia, pada tahun 2004, dimana lebih kurang 230,000 orang maut. Kita di Malaysia pun turut terkena tapi korban di sini tidak setinggi di Indonesia. Yang paling menyayat hati bila sorang bapa hilang ke semua ahli keluarga ke atau anaknya saja, tah la, aku pun ingat-ingat lupa. Yang tu happen kalau tak silap dekat Penang. Kesian betul. Aku pun menangis bila dengar cerita tu. Dan yang paling terbaru sekali earthquake kat Taiwan, tapi sebab kat sana diorang dah prepare, so ade warning earthquake ape semua, jadi just 2 orang yang tak bernasib baik je la yang mati sebab benca tu. Semua disaster yang aku nyatakan ni terjadi dalam bulan yang sama dan takih yang sama.
Korang tak pelik ke? Kenapa bulan 12 yang selalu terjadi semua ni? Highland tower tu bulan 12, tsunami bulan 12, earthquake kat Taiwan and Iran tu pun bulan 12. Well ada sesetengah pihak mengatakan, mungkin pembalasan yang diberikan pada manusia-manusia yang tak sedar diri lagi. According tu info yang aku dapat, ada yang cakap masa malam christmas, ramai orang dekat Acheh yang celebrate christmas, sampai tak ingat dunia. Then the next day...bum tsunami. Mungkin pembalasan dan juga amaran kepada siapa yang tak sedar diri lagi kot.
Macam kat Bukit Antarabangsa tu, tu kan tempat elit, well tempat maksiat pun iya tu. Iya la, ramai yang permpuan simpanan la, honey boy la, semua disumbat kesitu. Mane taknye petaka selalu terjadi kat sana. Well aku ade jugak member yang duduk sana dan dia sangatlah player. Bertukar gf, tu tak pe lagi, main tu dah semestinya, dan last sekali yang aku dengar tentang dia, dia sibuk cari ubat turun darah sebab ada yang dah melekat la tu. Nasib la aku tak pernah tersangkut dengan dia. Kalau tak naiya je.
Well back to the story, sekarang ni, apa yang aku dengar dah 8 orang mati dalam runtuhan yang baru-baru ni berlaku kat bukit antarabangsa. Kesian memang la kesian. Tapi pemaju still jalankan jugak projek buat rumah baru. Tarah sana sini keliling bukit. Mane taknye terjadi pekara macam ni. Suggestion aku, hentikan je la semua projek pembinaan kat situ. Dah cukup dah. Bangunkanlah pulak tempat lain. Tempat yang lebih selamat.
Klip Tanah Runtuh kat Bukit Antarabangsa
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Wa...the vocalist masuk TV!
Wah...i suddenly scream and scared both of my cat who running away as fast as they could. Well i'm amazed. I didnt get a chance to watch the semi-final for Juara Lagu 2008 which i was so badly wanna watch it. Then just a minute ago i decided to watch some of the song in youtube, my bro said the back up vocal was so gempak, and i was ok and eager to know who the hell is it, and when i watch wah...it's all of my friends and seniors... Wah...all the top vocal student ma... Isa, Kak Amal, Kak Dayang and Kak Rabiatul and also one of the degree bro. I don't remember his name. But i do know him. He was Isa close friends. And i was like so tak aci cause all this vocal student easily can get popular by being a back up vocal. While us the classical guitar student, struggle to get a good place... Wa...so hard. The classical song was so damn susah. I wish i'll take vocal before then guitar. Well on my time before, there's a lot of vocal and guitar student were accepted, then they have to re-audition back, but i still got guitar majoring cause there's only 2 girls who play the guitar in our faculty on that time. So accept je la the destiny. Huhuhu... Btw, congrats to all of them, pandai korang cari peluang ye.... Hehehehe. Hey let me know if there had any performance who wanna use the clasical guitar player, nak join the crowd jugak! Hehehe
Cinta Terhalang by Bob on Semi-final Juara Lagu 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Al-Fatihah
I was just surfing around looking for another blogging center, then suddenly my eyes stopped at this one girl blog, My Juice, by Erina Zahara. Her blog was nice, and the colour captured my eyes. A bright orange and brown. When i was scanning some of her post, my eyes stopped at this one post tittle Al-Fatihah. In that post she was talking about a friend that she didn't have a chance to know her closer, and that girl passed away on that day, October 19, 2008.
Her name was Maisara or she called her Sara Aziz. Then she give a link to Sara blog, i was eager to find out about this girl, why they said that she was so special etc. When i reach her blog, i read some of her last articles before she's gone. I cried. She was special. Such a brave young women. She died at the age of 20. Still young. She died because of cancer. I'm not so sure what type of cancer it is, cause i give up loading her page, it was damn slow, I'm not so sure either is it because of my Internet connection or her page was too heavy. But i got to see a glance of her picture. She's pretty and sweet. Beautiful with or without her make-up. Her last post was about her doctor persuades her to give a chance to chemotherapy. But she still resist it. Chemo is painful, i know it. My late mum also passed away cause of cancer. She first discover that she have a cancer when i was in form 1, it's kindda hard for me cause I'm still young too settle down all thus things at home.
First she was diagnosis for having a breast cancer, well as an advice from the doctor, she did an operation to get rid of the cancer stuff. Well it successful. She takes almost a year to recover from the operation. After almost 4 years from the operation, one day when i got home from school, my dad said that she was in hospital, she fell in the bathroom and she had a problem with her lung, she's hard to breathe. I was speechless. All i do is, change my clothes and quickly asked him to send me to mum. I was in form five and I'll be sitting for my final exam in a few month from that. When i arrived at the hospital, she said the doctor already pump out the water from her lung. But she still seems so hard to breathe. She stayed at the hospital alone that night. The next day i came to the hospital after school, i got up first and my dad going to parked the car. When i arrived there, there had this Indian doctor, she was checking her reports the she was saying something to her. But all i remember is, when she persuades her to go for a chemotherapy back, and her cancer is getting worst. I look at her and she speechless and have nothing to explain it to me. I quickly ran out and call for my ex bf to release all those things that haunting and bothering my mind. He calm me down as usual and then i go back inside, looking at my dad and mum, they said that the test from the water that they pump out from her lung yesterday, have a cancer cell. They diagnosis her as stage 4 and I'm not so sure either it's negative or positive, cause on previous, she was diagnosis as in stage 2 negative as the cancer cell was not active. Doctor predict that she only have about 3 month to live. She resist to accept any chemo anymore, she said it was painful, and i know it. I see her suffer before. And i suffer too looking at her like that. She was diagnosis on March 2006 and she passed away on July 2006. On a Sunday morning, in her sleep.
Gosh....i miss her and I've get too far from my first story, about Sara Aziz. Condolence to Sara's family. Even i don't even know her at all, but her story tear me up. Well she reminds me to my mum. A lot. Both of the suffer from cancer and passed away. I haven't taste a real home cook meal since my mum gone. She is a good chef, well she was a chef at 5 star hotel before, but she resigned since she been diagnosis for having a cancer on 2002. Gosh i miss you mama......i miss you so much. Before i forget, this is Sara Aziz blog, if you wanna know more about her.
Al-Fatihah to my mum, Noridah bt. Mohd Noor
and also
Al-Fatihah to Sara Aziz
May Allah bless both you in your past and after life.
I love you mama.
This song reminds me to my mum. I miss you mama...
Her name was Maisara or she called her Sara Aziz. Then she give a link to Sara blog, i was eager to find out about this girl, why they said that she was so special etc. When i reach her blog, i read some of her last articles before she's gone. I cried. She was special. Such a brave young women. She died at the age of 20. Still young. She died because of cancer. I'm not so sure what type of cancer it is, cause i give up loading her page, it was damn slow, I'm not so sure either is it because of my Internet connection or her page was too heavy. But i got to see a glance of her picture. She's pretty and sweet. Beautiful with or without her make-up. Her last post was about her doctor persuades her to give a chance to chemotherapy. But she still resist it. Chemo is painful, i know it. My late mum also passed away cause of cancer. She first discover that she have a cancer when i was in form 1, it's kindda hard for me cause I'm still young too settle down all thus things at home.
First she was diagnosis for having a breast cancer, well as an advice from the doctor, she did an operation to get rid of the cancer stuff. Well it successful. She takes almost a year to recover from the operation. After almost 4 years from the operation, one day when i got home from school, my dad said that she was in hospital, she fell in the bathroom and she had a problem with her lung, she's hard to breathe. I was speechless. All i do is, change my clothes and quickly asked him to send me to mum. I was in form five and I'll be sitting for my final exam in a few month from that. When i arrived at the hospital, she said the doctor already pump out the water from her lung. But she still seems so hard to breathe. She stayed at the hospital alone that night. The next day i came to the hospital after school, i got up first and my dad going to parked the car. When i arrived there, there had this Indian doctor, she was checking her reports the she was saying something to her. But all i remember is, when she persuades her to go for a chemotherapy back, and her cancer is getting worst. I look at her and she speechless and have nothing to explain it to me. I quickly ran out and call for my ex bf to release all those things that haunting and bothering my mind. He calm me down as usual and then i go back inside, looking at my dad and mum, they said that the test from the water that they pump out from her lung yesterday, have a cancer cell. They diagnosis her as stage 4 and I'm not so sure either it's negative or positive, cause on previous, she was diagnosis as in stage 2 negative as the cancer cell was not active. Doctor predict that she only have about 3 month to live. She resist to accept any chemo anymore, she said it was painful, and i know it. I see her suffer before. And i suffer too looking at her like that. She was diagnosis on March 2006 and she passed away on July 2006. On a Sunday morning, in her sleep.
Gosh....i miss her and I've get too far from my first story, about Sara Aziz. Condolence to Sara's family. Even i don't even know her at all, but her story tear me up. Well she reminds me to my mum. A lot. Both of the suffer from cancer and passed away. I haven't taste a real home cook meal since my mum gone. She is a good chef, well she was a chef at 5 star hotel before, but she resigned since she been diagnosis for having a cancer on 2002. Gosh i miss you mama......i miss you so much. Before i forget, this is Sara Aziz blog, if you wanna know more about her.
Al-Fatihah to my mum, Noridah bt. Mohd Noor
and also
Al-Fatihah to Sara Aziz
May Allah bless both you in your past and after life.
I love you mama.
This song reminds me to my mum. I miss you mama...
Happy Birthday Syah...
Happy Birthday to my beloved best friend, Aisyah@Syah@Mok....hehehe Well you're 19 now.... Wish you were here so that we can celebrate it together but too bad that you're on practical right now. But perhaps we can see each other on Aid Adha......See you pall....... Owe and enjoy your country scenery there at Melaka.....erm is it country? Erm whatever....hehehe Well this is just a new begging Syah, you can't stay practical around Negeri Sembilan forever... Hehehe.. cheers...
I miss this moment...after high school at the cyber cafe where i work as a part time worker.
I miss this moment...after high school at the cyber cafe where i work as a part time worker.Wednesday, December 3, 2008
U.O.X Play is back!
UOX play is back. Well as i told you all before that i went for an audition at capsquare for uox play and now it's back for the grand final uox of the year. Well i hope there will be more promotion about this. Well i know the promo has been made in newspaper and web but perhaps on tv or magazine etc. The events that i went before at capsquare was superb. Honestly it's the kind of events that i ever wanted to join. It's all for teenagers no parents or kids that we can bump into there. It's really nice. But maybe because the capsquare location was too new for all of us and it's hard to find it. We take almost 2 hours to get there. It was so much fun. The audition, the performance, the bazaar, the camera women, the breakdance, the art stuff but too bad for the crowd. I guess maybe they couldn't find their way to get there. But perhaps this coming Play will be supernova. Cause it will held on sungei wang rooftop. There must be crazy up there. Well the most important thing is, purple, don't change the purple colour, cause it was the identity for celcom and also my fave colour...hehehe. Well i guess this is for now about the UOX Play owe and don't forget to vote for this superb talented person...hehehe...Monday, December 1, 2008
Because I'm A Girl
A video clip that keeps me crying every time i watch it. The original version is in Korean, by Kiss, a Korean girl group, but this is the English version of this song by Jini, one of the Kiss members. This song also sing in several languages, but all i have in collection right now is only 3 version, Korean, English and Tagalog. But here i choose the English version cause it's easier to understand the lyric then the original one or others. Hope you enjoy.
Because I'm A Girl - KISS
I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away
You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free
(REFRAIN):
You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa
(CHORUS):
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl
Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry
Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again
(REFRAIN)
(CHORUS)
I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me
Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go
You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away
Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again
(CHORUS) [2x]
I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away
You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free
(REFRAIN):
You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa
(CHORUS):
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl
Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry
Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again
(REFRAIN)
(CHORUS)
I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me
Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go
You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away
Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again
(CHORUS) [2x]
Seem so wrong...
Everything use to be going quite well in my life. Now everything seems so wrong. So wrong. Ain't going the right. Everything seems falling apart. a lots of unexpected and unwanted things happen and i don't know how to handle it. Should i start it back again? Or should i just through the agony of pain? It's all in one. Only my heart knows what am i suffering to. With the family, with the studies, with the lover, and while I'm down right now, no friends came to help or at least to be some who i can turn to except for my best friends, Syah. But she can't always be there. She got her own things to do. Plus she's on her 2nd semester practical now as a nursing student. Sometimes like i wanna get rid of myself, but i know it's a big crime. I guess I'm lost my way right now, and i don't know to who i can turn to. I can't put all the burden on papa, he had suffer enough especially since mama passed away 2 years ago. Emotion suffering, that's what I've been through right now. Before this i use to turn to my bf, but i know he got he's own problem to settle things down. And i can't always depending on him. I have to learn how to survive too. But it just i don't know how to do it. I really loose my way. Can't turn to papa cause he had suffer enough about this family and also his siblings and mama's family too. It's kindda complicated, but that's what happen. My brother? He got he's own prob and i don't even wanna discover about it cause i had enough things that running into my mind right now. I know he's suffer too but he just didn't show it. Syah, she's on practical. My bf? He with he's own problem and i know he had suffer enough too and i don't wanna bother him with my problem. Wanna let him stabilize himself first then i trouble him with my problem. Argh...i feel like I'm going insane right now. I just hope that there can be miracle for me to handle all this. So hoping for a miracle.
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